the best feeling after coming home from work?
scratch my pubes!
scratch till it is almost red but not to the extent of scraping the first layer of the skin off! lol total bliss
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dear blog, ive been away for too long. i miss you, but i think you really need a make over. So.... after this, shall we do some spring cleaning? :)
did you any of you bloggers out there miss me? lol.. don't worry, i wont make a big deal even if you didnt comment after reading.... *inside joke* those who understood and laugh, please just keep it to yourself ok...
tatafornow! axe oh axe oh
t u l s
Monday, February 29, 2016
Tuesday, August 11, 2015
good deed : a stranger in the rain
a girl came in to my office today at 6.30pm, wearing blue t shirt and jeans, looking puzzled and a little wet from the rain..
i asked her whats wrong..
she said she was with a man, who promised her a job in KL, but then they had a disagreement, he then left her by the road side and drove off.
she said she lives near the Mines, and I was taken aback of how far she is from home.
i probe around and found out that she is an orphan who is 19 that doesnt live in an orphanage anymore, in her 2nd semester of accountancy in UCSI and doesnt have any money with her.
so i thought, ok why not help her get home, cos there is no public transport within 2km of this area.
and so i took an umbrella, walked with her to the nearest bus stop and waited for a taxi with her.
after waiting for 5 minutes, one of the lady in the crowd approached me and asked me where am i going, and so i said KL sentral. the lady said the few of them are going as well and asked whether we would like to join to share the fare. i smiled. i told the girl to follow the ladies, get to kl sentral and then take a ktm home. i gave her some money to take the taxi. i gave her some money for her ktm to the Mines. and i gave her some extra cash just in case she doesnt have enough. she thanked me and said "how can i ever repay you". i just smiled and say, "help someone home the next time", i left and walk back to the office after asking the working ladies at the bus stop to take good care of her..
i could see the bus stop from my office and from time to time i just keep looking at the bus stop to see whether any taxi stopped by for them.
after a couple of minutes, one taxi did, and when i thought she is going in to the taxi, she did not. i felt a little uneasy after that.
from a distance, both of our eyes met for a split second but i just kept doing what i was doing.
moments later she came back in, and i asked her why is she still here and that she hasnt left with the ladies?
she said she thinks she lost her phone and wanted to make a call and see who answers it. and so i let her, using the office phone.
she then say no one is answering and said that she might have lost it somewhere along the way.
something is amiss. my gut feeling is telling me something is.................... well.. i dont know.
the funny thing that happened next is that she say its ok, and that she will wait at another bus stop who has a larger crowd cos she said she saw more taxis over there just now.
i said go ahead. and i say hope that she reaches home safely. i smiled and she thanked me again and ask for my name card.
i told her "its ok, you dont have to repay me, i work here. you can always find me here".
she left soon after.
the other bus stop was not in sight from my office. and so the story ends here.
i try not to doubt or judge the girl, i know i did my best. putting myself in her shoes, i know how it feels if she really is lost. and so im content. but... hmm.. lol. i should stop here now.
i asked her whats wrong..
she said she was with a man, who promised her a job in KL, but then they had a disagreement, he then left her by the road side and drove off.
she said she lives near the Mines, and I was taken aback of how far she is from home.
i probe around and found out that she is an orphan who is 19 that doesnt live in an orphanage anymore, in her 2nd semester of accountancy in UCSI and doesnt have any money with her.
so i thought, ok why not help her get home, cos there is no public transport within 2km of this area.
and so i took an umbrella, walked with her to the nearest bus stop and waited for a taxi with her.
after waiting for 5 minutes, one of the lady in the crowd approached me and asked me where am i going, and so i said KL sentral. the lady said the few of them are going as well and asked whether we would like to join to share the fare. i smiled. i told the girl to follow the ladies, get to kl sentral and then take a ktm home. i gave her some money to take the taxi. i gave her some money for her ktm to the Mines. and i gave her some extra cash just in case she doesnt have enough. she thanked me and said "how can i ever repay you". i just smiled and say, "help someone home the next time", i left and walk back to the office after asking the working ladies at the bus stop to take good care of her..
i could see the bus stop from my office and from time to time i just keep looking at the bus stop to see whether any taxi stopped by for them.
after a couple of minutes, one taxi did, and when i thought she is going in to the taxi, she did not. i felt a little uneasy after that.
from a distance, both of our eyes met for a split second but i just kept doing what i was doing.
moments later she came back in, and i asked her why is she still here and that she hasnt left with the ladies?
she said she thinks she lost her phone and wanted to make a call and see who answers it. and so i let her, using the office phone.
she then say no one is answering and said that she might have lost it somewhere along the way.
something is amiss. my gut feeling is telling me something is.................... well.. i dont know.
the funny thing that happened next is that she say its ok, and that she will wait at another bus stop who has a larger crowd cos she said she saw more taxis over there just now.
i said go ahead. and i say hope that she reaches home safely. i smiled and she thanked me again and ask for my name card.
i told her "its ok, you dont have to repay me, i work here. you can always find me here".
she left soon after.
the other bus stop was not in sight from my office. and so the story ends here.
i try not to doubt or judge the girl, i know i did my best. putting myself in her shoes, i know how it feels if she really is lost. and so im content. but... hmm.. lol. i should stop here now.
Friday, July 31, 2015
new revelation of the past...
it's been a while since i had a heart to heart talk with my mum. traditional chinese families dont do heart to heart. showing love or concern is kinda a taboo. although there are no exchange of saying i love yous and physical hugs, you could still feel the love.
i dont consider my parents to be traditional at all, but, some traditional traits were passed down to them indirectly.
something happened today and it kinda brought up stuffs in the past. stuffs that i no longer wanna remember but yet cant avoid.
when i was younger, i dont really remember my mum cook at home at all. we would always order take out and would go to restaurants to eat dinner and all after school. up till now i still tell myself and friends that my family rarely cooks at home cos eating out really is cheaper than to cook at home, which is considerably true to think of it.
remember we used to go kenny rogers all the time? you know why we always go there? cos i dont have to pay by cash. i pay all using credit card, and then only pay minimal at the end of each month just to survive. i remember times when i dont even have cash to eat lunch. i would rather borrow from the bank than my siblings. yes they say family comes first, but all my siblings have got family of their own and sometimes its not as easy as borrowing from him or her, its more like borrowing from that family.
well those days are gone, mum is no longer in debt thank goodness.
all my mums siblings are quite well off to do. most of them are quite strong in terms of religion and believing in God and all. they donate to their respective place of prayers every so often without holding back but that kinda irk me in a way now to think of it when they refuse to help mum but yet so willing to donate to something that is merely visible.
yes, i'm all out not a religious person. i can say that i dont believe in something that i cant see. i may not understand the supreme divine being that is higher than us. that aside, why can't you help your family before helping the church or temple? you do that because donating to the church makes you feel more noble? people noticed how much you donate and they praise and appreciate you more? for goodness sake your sister is suffering somewhere else...
i respect my elders, but that doesnt mean i need to like them... i still do go back to my mum's hometown for reunions and stuffs just for the sake of my mum... i dont really wanna.. there is nothing there to see other than relatives flaunting their riches at our faces..
you dont know how much i had to put up last time just to survive. i just dont say it out only.
that instance i nearly cried, but i didnt. it was the past and i'll just let it be. yes i may be hating my aunts and uncles but everything is ok now. mum is better now that im good boy stable earning a fixed income every month. i took over paying all the utility bills and car loans and just trying to ease her burden as much as i could.
i want to tell her that i love her very much, and i really do appreciate her, but because of the traditional family trait of not expressing that was indirectly passed to me, i didnt. but i know she knows and i know she knows that i know too. so its all good.
we will just love each other silently.
i dont consider my parents to be traditional at all, but, some traditional traits were passed down to them indirectly.
something happened today and it kinda brought up stuffs in the past. stuffs that i no longer wanna remember but yet cant avoid.
when i was younger, i dont really remember my mum cook at home at all. we would always order take out and would go to restaurants to eat dinner and all after school. up till now i still tell myself and friends that my family rarely cooks at home cos eating out really is cheaper than to cook at home, which is considerably true to think of it.
remember we used to go kenny rogers all the time? you know why we always go there? cos i dont have to pay by cash. i pay all using credit card, and then only pay minimal at the end of each month just to survive. i remember times when i dont even have cash to eat lunch. i would rather borrow from the bank than my siblings. yes they say family comes first, but all my siblings have got family of their own and sometimes its not as easy as borrowing from him or her, its more like borrowing from that family.
well those days are gone, mum is no longer in debt thank goodness.
all my mums siblings are quite well off to do. most of them are quite strong in terms of religion and believing in God and all. they donate to their respective place of prayers every so often without holding back but that kinda irk me in a way now to think of it when they refuse to help mum but yet so willing to donate to something that is merely visible.
yes, i'm all out not a religious person. i can say that i dont believe in something that i cant see. i may not understand the supreme divine being that is higher than us. that aside, why can't you help your family before helping the church or temple? you do that because donating to the church makes you feel more noble? people noticed how much you donate and they praise and appreciate you more? for goodness sake your sister is suffering somewhere else...
i respect my elders, but that doesnt mean i need to like them... i still do go back to my mum's hometown for reunions and stuffs just for the sake of my mum... i dont really wanna.. there is nothing there to see other than relatives flaunting their riches at our faces..
you dont know how much i had to put up last time just to survive. i just dont say it out only.
that instance i nearly cried, but i didnt. it was the past and i'll just let it be. yes i may be hating my aunts and uncles but everything is ok now. mum is better now that im good boy stable earning a fixed income every month. i took over paying all the utility bills and car loans and just trying to ease her burden as much as i could.
i want to tell her that i love her very much, and i really do appreciate her, but because of the traditional family trait of not expressing that was indirectly passed to me, i didnt. but i know she knows and i know she knows that i know too. so its all good.
we will just love each other silently.
Tuesday, May 5, 2015
mugged...
a girl friend just got mugged by a group of 4.
it never occur to us about these things until it really happen to people around us.
she did not sustain any injuries nor harmed.
only money and phone was taken.
ive been thinking about it all afternoon, about what if i had went out with her today. she might've not been targeted.
then there are all the things that was going round my head about what happen if im at scene when it happens. i would draw out a samurai sword, grab my gf close around me and spin, slashing the four dickheads.. or if i have psychic power and i make them 4 stab each other to death.. or if i could grow twice my size and be like hulk and just crush and tear them apart.. lol... so many crazy things was going on up there.. haha...
but whatever pun, she is safe now.. just make sure she brings her umbrella along wherever she go. lol.
i asked a colleague of mine today on what if she was in my friend's position, what will she do? she said if there are things that are important to her that was in her purse, she would fight crazily for it..
hm... i guess she has her point... but is it worth to risk her life just to protect that "thing"?
:)
i really feel like killing those bastards. lol
it never occur to us about these things until it really happen to people around us.
she did not sustain any injuries nor harmed.
only money and phone was taken.
ive been thinking about it all afternoon, about what if i had went out with her today. she might've not been targeted.
then there are all the things that was going round my head about what happen if im at scene when it happens. i would draw out a samurai sword, grab my gf close around me and spin, slashing the four dickheads.. or if i have psychic power and i make them 4 stab each other to death.. or if i could grow twice my size and be like hulk and just crush and tear them apart.. lol... so many crazy things was going on up there.. haha...
but whatever pun, she is safe now.. just make sure she brings her umbrella along wherever she go. lol.
i asked a colleague of mine today on what if she was in my friend's position, what will she do? she said if there are things that are important to her that was in her purse, she would fight crazily for it..
hm... i guess she has her point... but is it worth to risk her life just to protect that "thing"?
:)
i really feel like killing those bastards. lol
Thursday, March 12, 2015
there are lots of good strangers out there...
you know sometimes you have that feeling.. feeling of feeling feeling.. like sudden influx of emotions through your body for no reason..
well i just had one..
was showering and was thinking while looking at the ceiling...
i realize that im in malaysia...
like wow...
it took me half a year to really realize that..
....
im not sleeping the whole time...
i was just....... .............i dont know. suddenly i miss the cold miserable full of slutty fun life of England..
Keith texted me not too long ago and said that I had overdrawn 10pounds from my bank account and that the statement was sent to him... and i was like: REALLY?... and he was like: yea, i paid it off already..
:)
he is just too sweet... still sweet even after so long....
i do miss him..
he is a good chapter of my life.. Carter once said to me a year ago, he said: I think if Keith was 10 years younger you would have married him...
i guess he is right, i said. haha.... silly keith... he texts me every now and then asking about life over here in malaysia, asking about Carter and I, my family.. he is really such a sweeet sweeet daddy. Anyone who wants a daddy in UK who doesnt mind him sexing me before can always contact me and I shall intro la.. LOL... JOking..
anyway...
chatting with Keith made me reminisce about the life i had in UK. the weather, the job, me taking the metro, my lovely awesome car, my graduation, how i struggled through uni while doing 2 jobs at the same time...
i had a great life there..
i always told myself, i wanna get out of the country for good, never wanna come back here, this place is a shithole...
being back here for 6 month, having someone special now, surrounded by friends and family, it feels like this is not a bad place after all...
haha..
i mean as long as youre content with what you have and where you are, i guess its all that you need to stick around..
or maybe im just too lazy to find a job in England, but whatever, thats not the main point..
i wanna thank those who wrote to me with their concerns and those who wanted to help for the past few years while i was abroad.. at times of trouble, you guys were there to support even though most of you dont even know me personally at all...
to that one person who helped me get tix to go home when i was in deep shit, i owe you the most, you helped me even though we havent met and that you only know my story through this blog... may God bless you always.. you dont know how much it meant to me that night, it was like 2 am in the morning, and my visa was like expiring in a month, and I was all alone, with no one to go to, insomnia kicked in, stress mode full on and with no security whatsoever, I texted you and..... ....just thank you so so much. Like the angmos like to say: youre an angel! :)
i've had lots of really good encounters in my life... lots of help here and there along the way.. i just wanna be that person in the future too, someone who could lend a hand to another person when he/she is in deep shit, whether its emotional, financial or physical support... i know i am trying to...
there are lots of good strangers out there, i wanna be a part of that society too..
till then... have a good year ahead to whoever who is still reading this dusty page :)
well i just had one..
was showering and was thinking while looking at the ceiling...
i realize that im in malaysia...
like wow...
it took me half a year to really realize that..
....
im not sleeping the whole time...
i was just....... .............i dont know. suddenly i miss the cold miserable full of slutty fun life of England..
Keith texted me not too long ago and said that I had overdrawn 10pounds from my bank account and that the statement was sent to him... and i was like: REALLY?... and he was like: yea, i paid it off already..
:)
he is just too sweet... still sweet even after so long....
i do miss him..
he is a good chapter of my life.. Carter once said to me a year ago, he said: I think if Keith was 10 years younger you would have married him...
i guess he is right, i said. haha.... silly keith... he texts me every now and then asking about life over here in malaysia, asking about Carter and I, my family.. he is really such a sweeet sweeet daddy. Anyone who wants a daddy in UK who doesnt mind him sexing me before can always contact me and I shall intro la.. LOL... JOking..
anyway...
chatting with Keith made me reminisce about the life i had in UK. the weather, the job, me taking the metro, my lovely awesome car, my graduation, how i struggled through uni while doing 2 jobs at the same time...
i had a great life there..
i always told myself, i wanna get out of the country for good, never wanna come back here, this place is a shithole...
being back here for 6 month, having someone special now, surrounded by friends and family, it feels like this is not a bad place after all...
haha..
i mean as long as youre content with what you have and where you are, i guess its all that you need to stick around..
or maybe im just too lazy to find a job in England, but whatever, thats not the main point..
i wanna thank those who wrote to me with their concerns and those who wanted to help for the past few years while i was abroad.. at times of trouble, you guys were there to support even though most of you dont even know me personally at all...
to that one person who helped me get tix to go home when i was in deep shit, i owe you the most, you helped me even though we havent met and that you only know my story through this blog... may God bless you always.. you dont know how much it meant to me that night, it was like 2 am in the morning, and my visa was like expiring in a month, and I was all alone, with no one to go to, insomnia kicked in, stress mode full on and with no security whatsoever, I texted you and..... ....just thank you so so much. Like the angmos like to say: youre an angel! :)
i've had lots of really good encounters in my life... lots of help here and there along the way.. i just wanna be that person in the future too, someone who could lend a hand to another person when he/she is in deep shit, whether its emotional, financial or physical support... i know i am trying to...
there are lots of good strangers out there, i wanna be a part of that society too..
till then... have a good year ahead to whoever who is still reading this dusty page :)
Monday, March 9, 2015
dried cum...
i woke up today, admiring my fat chest and to my amazement i saw a shiny scale... and i was like... wtf is that?
the end.
Thursday, February 12, 2015
pee fetish marking territory...
so one day a conversation about fetishes was brought up during a relaxing evening and...
Carter: so what other fetishes do you have?
Me: well... this may sound weird but i always wanted to try a golden shower..
er.....
what?! :( i told you it was weird...
.....
what?!!! lol
...... well i wouldnt do it to you...
why not?
cos i respect you as a person...
er.... not to say ..... but its not about respect or not ma...
......still no...
.....why wor..... lol.... its not a thing la, im not asking you to do pun, i havent tried la, but i always imagined it la.... :p
ok, fine, if you really want me to do it can, i pee on you but you cannot wash it away cos im marking territory..
=.=
Carter: so what other fetishes do you have?
Me: well... this may sound weird but i always wanted to try a golden shower..
er.....
what?! :( i told you it was weird...
.....
what?!!! lol
...... well i wouldnt do it to you...
why not?
cos i respect you as a person...
er.... not to say ..... but its not about respect or not ma...
......still no...
.....why wor..... lol.... its not a thing la, im not asking you to do pun, i havent tried la, but i always imagined it la.... :p
ok, fine, if you really want me to do it can, i pee on you but you cannot wash it away cos im marking territory..
=.=
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
young and cute february no more?...
seems like it was yesterday that young and cute month was established! lol..
im forever young and cute anyway, being a quarter century old, life has just started for me!
i dont really remember the details on how it came by, close blogger friends was like HEY TULS, its FEBRUARY AGAIN!!
errr... so?
YOUNG AND CUTE MONTH!!
O M G!! YES!!! .....wait.... why was it young and cute again?
hahahaha... it seems my memory has failed me.. or maybe my brain isnt registering stuffs that are not worth remembering.. its good like that.. shutting out feelings would be easy for me... so i say...
haha...
people grow, people change, so i guess, young and cute month should come to an end..
but...
instead...
we will have... YOUNG AND CUTE DECADE!!!!
SO FOR THE NEXT 10 YEARS, WE WILL FOREVER AND ALWAYS BE YOUNG AND CUTE!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA....
ok i think im crazy already...
as usual, i will have some cutie-s for this special blog post! :)
im forever young and cute anyway, being a quarter century old, life has just started for me!
i dont really remember the details on how it came by, close blogger friends was like HEY TULS, its FEBRUARY AGAIN!!
errr... so?
YOUNG AND CUTE MONTH!!
O M G!! YES!!! .....wait.... why was it young and cute again?
hahahaha... it seems my memory has failed me.. or maybe my brain isnt registering stuffs that are not worth remembering.. its good like that.. shutting out feelings would be easy for me... so i say...
haha...
people grow, people change, so i guess, young and cute month should come to an end..
but...
instead...
we will have... YOUNG AND CUTE DECADE!!!!
SO FOR THE NEXT 10 YEARS, WE WILL FOREVER AND ALWAYS BE YOUNG AND CUTE!!!!
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA....
ok i think im crazy already...
as usual, i will have some cutie-s for this special blog post! :)
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Tuesday, February 3, 2015
stalker ex-blogger...
an old blogger that i know sent me a fb message in september but i only realize it in january.. it goes..
hey TULS, add me again, its been sometime...
i was curious about why i dont him as a friend anymore on fb.. lol and so i added him back.. and then moments later..
thanks for the add
heya, i'm at work, talk later k..
btw me and xxx(another blogger) are no longer friends..
doesnt really concern me la.. lol
back in KL?
yea..
hey did you get my new number? btw where are you working now?
no i did not...
at mont kiara?
i was shocked... i didnt want him to know where exactly im working la not that im really close to him.. so i just said
yea..
at 1montkiara?
that is a little creepy already
nope..
publika?
nearby..
plaza damas?
nearby..
by this time i already dont feel like talking to him anymore..
hey, wanna meet tomorrow?
erm.. im not free
and a few more occasions he did ask me out but once i was celebrating Carter's birthday.. and a few more times i was with family and also spending time with Carter..
Okay. I guess that means you'll probably not be free for any meetups at all.. Bye and have fun
hey TULS, add me again, its been sometime...
i was curious about why i dont him as a friend anymore on fb.. lol and so i added him back.. and then moments later..
thanks for the add
heya, i'm at work, talk later k..
btw me and xxx(another blogger) are no longer friends..
doesnt really concern me la.. lol
back in KL?
yea..
hey did you get my new number? btw where are you working now?
no i did not...
at mont kiara?
i was shocked... i didnt want him to know where exactly im working la not that im really close to him.. so i just said
yea..
at 1montkiara?
that is a little creepy already
nope..
publika?
nearby..
plaza damas?
nearby..
by this time i already dont feel like talking to him anymore..
hey, wanna meet tomorrow?
erm.. im not free
and a few more occasions he did ask me out but once i was celebrating Carter's birthday.. and a few more times i was with family and also spending time with Carter..
Okay. I guess that means you'll probably not be free for any meetups at all.. Bye and have fun
i deleted him off facebook, and i make sure i will always disable my location before sending text to sohais.. and i finally realize why i dont have him on my fb.. so not worth my effort and time..
*flip hair*
Friday, January 30, 2015
cake-breaking love..
we were having one of our usual weekly dates. this time round it was in Alexis Pavilion. their cake selection always look tempting and so we ordered 2 of those.
lets call them cake A and cake B..
i took a scoop of A and immediately i fell in love with it. Cake B is... well.. not my kinda thing at all. just one bite and that is it for me.
Carter loves cake A as well. so... being the understanding boyfriend i am *fliphair* i started eating cake B and asked Carter to eat cake A..
he saw and he knew that i love cake A and so...
nah, you eat cake A la... i know you like cake A.. *took cake B from me*
dowan la.. you eat la, i can eat this cake..
no, you eat cake A..
*i tried to take cake B from him*
and without warning, he took his spoon and smash cake B twice.
i look at him for 1.5 seconds and i laugh like mad.. and he laughed like crap too..
see, this one ugly already, you take cake A...
-.-
memang menyampah right? urgh.... lol....
lets call them cake A and cake B..
i took a scoop of A and immediately i fell in love with it. Cake B is... well.. not my kinda thing at all. just one bite and that is it for me.
Carter loves cake A as well. so... being the understanding boyfriend i am *fliphair* i started eating cake B and asked Carter to eat cake A..
he saw and he knew that i love cake A and so...
nah, you eat cake A la... i know you like cake A.. *took cake B from me*
dowan la.. you eat la, i can eat this cake..
no, you eat cake A..
*i tried to take cake B from him*
and without warning, he took his spoon and smash cake B twice.
i look at him for 1.5 seconds and i laugh like mad.. and he laughed like crap too..
see, this one ugly already, you take cake A...
-.-
memang menyampah right? urgh.... lol....
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
suck fingers while driving...
the journey was long, it was a 5 hour drive and baby Carter was starting to get sleepy..
baby, can you talk to me..
what you wanna talk about..
anything, i just wanna be awake..
you want coffee? you want a break?
we are almost there... so maybe not..
erm.... well... do you want a blowjob?
-.-
what?
if blowing can wake you up... i would... lol
and there he goes telling me all about his past car-blowjob-sexperience etc etc and i was pretend listening...
he knew i was not focusing on his stories, he took my right hand with his left and put my index finger in his mouth and he started sucking it..
what the fuck are you doing??
oh....my.....gosh....
ok, i admit, i have a sensitive finger, and when its in someone's oral cavity, gone la gone la, i twitch and twerk on the passenger seat as though as i was having a fit...
and with that, Carter is awake..
-.-
and also little TULS...
-.-
and then little Carter too...
the end.
we arrived at our destination moments later.
baby, can you talk to me..
what you wanna talk about..
anything, i just wanna be awake..
you want coffee? you want a break?
we are almost there... so maybe not..
erm.... well... do you want a blowjob?
-.-
what?
if blowing can wake you up... i would... lol
and there he goes telling me all about his past car-blowjob-sexperience etc etc and i was pretend listening...
he knew i was not focusing on his stories, he took my right hand with his left and put my index finger in his mouth and he started sucking it..
what the fuck are you doing??
oh....my.....gosh....
ok, i admit, i have a sensitive finger, and when its in someone's oral cavity, gone la gone la, i twitch and twerk on the passenger seat as though as i was having a fit...
and with that, Carter is awake..
-.-
and also little TULS...
-.-
and then little Carter too...
the end.
we arrived at our destination moments later.
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
mischievous Carter...
was driving to Carter's one day..
it was a 5 hour journey..
he was driving while im on his left.. his DAD was at the back seat!
halfway through the journey he grab hold my right hand. i turn to him with amazement!
what?
but,... your dad is behind!!
so what? he's asleep...
yea... but still.....
so what if he finds out?
lol... are you ready for him to know?
so he held my hand till we reach his place with his dad at the back seat, not sure whether he saw anything or not.. silly Carter.. i know he doesnt mind his family knowing about us but i dont like to rub it in their face, not like this... haha.. at least not on our first parent-partner introduction!!! :)
it was a 5 hour journey..
he was driving while im on his left.. his DAD was at the back seat!
halfway through the journey he grab hold my right hand. i turn to him with amazement!
what?
but,... your dad is behind!!
so what? he's asleep...
yea... but still.....
so what if he finds out?
lol... are you ready for him to know?
so he held my hand till we reach his place with his dad at the back seat, not sure whether he saw anything or not.. silly Carter.. i know he doesnt mind his family knowing about us but i dont like to rub it in their face, not like this... haha.. at least not on our first parent-partner introduction!!! :)
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Tuls starts to work!!
yup yup... work starts on Monday, everyone wish me luck ok!! :) lol i dont think i need luck, i dont think i need anything, i just need to see Carter.. lol...
back when i was in UK i keep telling myself "i need to come back, i have to come back, i dowana go back to shitholeland"... but look at me now, im here! lol. i dont know, i feel like even then while i was working in the UK, i didnt really fight or put much effort into getting a job in the UK, everyone has been saying "its not easy", yup, immigration is really shitty and getting a visa is tough but it is not not doable, ive been telling myself that its ok, i will get to come back here anyway, but i know i didnt even try at all..
after reaching shitholeland few months back, there were some stupid complication with my professional body in the UK and my registration and so that kinda delayed me apply for my professional exam in Msia and also affected my application for jobs in the UK. while i was working my way to rectify the problem with the pro body, i kinda enjoying the food here and also did some travelling around. that was also when i met up Carter and kinda changed everything. by the time the issue with the professional body was corrected, i was already with Carter.
if lets say i would have gotten a job in the UK back then, we wouldnt have met and we wouldnt have been together. if lets say Carter and I were to meet up a little later and if i were to get my practicing license earlier, without Carter in the picture i would have reapply to work elsewhere, maybe back in the UK and try to date a black guy that was kinda into me at that moment. lol. i can imagine Carter's face when he reads that line! hahahahahah...
each time i tell my friends that im staying here to work, and with them knowing im with Carter, they would say "you have to plan your future for yourself and not stay just because of Carter and etc". I know that they care and maybe cos they know that deep down i really dont like this place, and maybe they thought that Carter should understand and maybe go over to UK if i was there, i know. but the thing is, it is not like what they think. They didnt know the whole story but everything was ok after a little explanation.
ive sat down with my mum and also Carter, not together but on separate occasions and kinda work the figures out, of me working elsewhere and back home, and anyhow, i would have gotten just enough to cover everything in terms of expenses with not much extra to spend if i were to work overseas with my current work experience and qualification. and so ive decided to stay. in a way, i could kill x-birds with this stone. Carter would be nearer to me. not to say that he wouldnt if i were to go away, ultimately he would work his way over to come to where i was working anyway, im sure of it. apart from that i could spend more time with mum as well since ive been apart for a whole 3 years. well, in a way i still have business back here that i could easily say that i can leave behind easily which i could but it would be a lie if i say i dont miss them.
since i left for the UK and being back here, ive gained a total of 15kilos. ive got bigger love handles now, haha, and i think it will keep getting bigger up until Chinese New Year next year and then i will start doing something about it! :) haha..
but yea, TULS starts to work already, wearing shirts and shit, so whoever have got a work attire fetish, please come see me in KL ok lol. dont worry, im not overly obese or overweight, im actually at my ideal BMI now because of my height, but would be better if those kilos were muscles rather than fat stores :) haha..
Sunday, December 7, 2014
a glimpse of baby Carter tomorrow!
baby Carter will be back from work tomorrow..
he will be flying home from Vietnam so I guess I will be meeting him for a brief few hours in KL before he leaves to go back home up north...
haha...
cant wait!!!
i know its only for a short few hours but its better than nothing!!!!
im so excited!!!
Friday, December 5, 2014
How Carter and I met... Part 1
Well, what do you think? We met online, he said he was a reader of my blog. I think he commented once in my blog and then I replied, and i kinda click on his google profile and saw his contact or something and we started chatting. I have the goldfishies memory in mankind history so pardon me Carter if any of these were a little off. lol.
So we started talking through... .wait a minute, we started talking on facebook first, then from facebook we moved to imessage, then eventually we facetime. I was in the UK when we first contacted each other, so in a way our friendship was kinda virtual based. He said he has been following my blog since like forever, awwww, how sweet is that, i got a fan! lol.
we kinda connected on our first conversation then it just kick off. he was kinda seeing someone then and i was seeing Keith then too so we kinda both were attached in a way and wasnt available so it was a very mutual friendly kinda virtual friendship. i wanted to scroll up facebook chat to when we first started chatting but i dont think i can bear scrolling 130000 messages, thats too much,.. lol.. so... i will just have to squeeze my brain a little.. thats just facebook, it would be more on imessage, maybe twice the amount? gosh.. i cant imagine... lol
haha, we've always said that we will meet up when im back and when he is back, he was all over the world because of his job and he was never kinda stationary at one place. but it felt like forever for us to meet, he did plan to come to the UK before if im not mistaken but... it never happened for some particular reason.. cant remember why...
we talked almost everyday i think, and he would just ignore me during the weekends.. i always ask him why do you ignore me and his answer will always be: "cos you should spend time with Keith..", or whoever that i was with then, haha, even as friends he was so selfless, i mean it was really nice talking to him and vice versa, i think if im not mistaken we were talking while he was having sex at one point too, i cant imagine how did he juggle with that.. or maybe im just imagining things up.. but anyway..
we facetime whenever we could, i will always be half naked and for some reason his line will always be bad and 50% of the time i will only see a black screen.. lol..
we were online friends for nearly 2 years before im back to malaysia. throughout the 2 years we kinda talked about everything, ive never hidden anything from him before knowing that there isnt anything to lose if it happens assuming that he will always be a virtual friend anyway, haha.. so he had since seen the worse side of me, my bad habits, how i cook, how messy my room is, how i dig my nose, how i scratch my ass, how i fart etc... i shall not go on, lol, he hasnt seen me naked tho(then) lol, nor i have him. so yea haha...
ive never come to a part where i was even thinking that this friendship would develop further than it already has cos i know that he has attachments with "people" then.. and i was with Keith, and then little Tom and then the belgian guy and then the black guy so my life was kinda full house then too..
so after i came back to Malaysia, Carter has this crazy idea of meeting up, i wasn't really sure about it but he said he was coming down tomorrow and asked if i was free and i said yes and then he just did.. it was so spontaneous. i say came down cos he was from up north. lol..
anyway, he said he booked a few nights in KL and asked me whether i wanna go sleepover and we could catch up and I was like thinking to myself, why not?, ive got nothing to lose, im single and available, ive got no attachments, so nothing could go wrong anyway, and he said that there is another friend that would be joining us and so i thought wow, 3some sleepoever... lol...
so he came the next day and we meet for the first time, we meet after 2 years of chatting online, i was excited but for some reason i dont really feel nervous. not to say dream come true but like youve been talking to someone for so long and youve connected so deeply and for so long and you finally get to meet that person, it was really important to me..
ive connected with Carter at so many levels throughout this 2 years, levels that sometimes i didnt even know exist... it was nice, it was soothing, it was comforting, the feeling was great, connecting with Carter is like how your asshole would feel after having a dump, its just so relaxing and .... just... wow.. ok maybe my metaphor is a bit disgusting but the point is there...
so meeting Carter is like the next big thing to do..
we hung out, we ate, we talked, we reconnected, we sleepover. This trip, no hankypanky happen for some reason. My slut mode was switched on, it wasnt really all sexual with Carter, maybe cos of how long weve known each other for, I just dont have the urge to sex him up, not like he did anything at all during that trip and on those few nights we were together...
oh yea, the 3rd person came and join us during the day but not the sleepover, hence we have the whole place to ourselves, but nevertheless, we behaved, so much so that i dont believe it was me, cos i will never be this good of a boy with a stranger, lol, the thing is he isnt any stranger in my mind although physically he is very much.
...to be continued...
So we started talking through... .wait a minute, we started talking on facebook first, then from facebook we moved to imessage, then eventually we facetime. I was in the UK when we first contacted each other, so in a way our friendship was kinda virtual based. He said he has been following my blog since like forever, awwww, how sweet is that, i got a fan! lol.
we kinda connected on our first conversation then it just kick off. he was kinda seeing someone then and i was seeing Keith then too so we kinda both were attached in a way and wasnt available so it was a very mutual friendly kinda virtual friendship. i wanted to scroll up facebook chat to when we first started chatting but i dont think i can bear scrolling 130000 messages, thats too much,.. lol.. so... i will just have to squeeze my brain a little.. thats just facebook, it would be more on imessage, maybe twice the amount? gosh.. i cant imagine... lol
haha, we've always said that we will meet up when im back and when he is back, he was all over the world because of his job and he was never kinda stationary at one place. but it felt like forever for us to meet, he did plan to come to the UK before if im not mistaken but... it never happened for some particular reason.. cant remember why...
we talked almost everyday i think, and he would just ignore me during the weekends.. i always ask him why do you ignore me and his answer will always be: "cos you should spend time with Keith..", or whoever that i was with then, haha, even as friends he was so selfless, i mean it was really nice talking to him and vice versa, i think if im not mistaken we were talking while he was having sex at one point too, i cant imagine how did he juggle with that.. or maybe im just imagining things up.. but anyway..
we facetime whenever we could, i will always be half naked and for some reason his line will always be bad and 50% of the time i will only see a black screen.. lol..
we were online friends for nearly 2 years before im back to malaysia. throughout the 2 years we kinda talked about everything, ive never hidden anything from him before knowing that there isnt anything to lose if it happens assuming that he will always be a virtual friend anyway, haha.. so he had since seen the worse side of me, my bad habits, how i cook, how messy my room is, how i dig my nose, how i scratch my ass, how i fart etc... i shall not go on, lol, he hasnt seen me naked tho(then) lol, nor i have him. so yea haha...
ive never come to a part where i was even thinking that this friendship would develop further than it already has cos i know that he has attachments with "people" then.. and i was with Keith, and then little Tom and then the belgian guy and then the black guy so my life was kinda full house then too..
so after i came back to Malaysia, Carter has this crazy idea of meeting up, i wasn't really sure about it but he said he was coming down tomorrow and asked if i was free and i said yes and then he just did.. it was so spontaneous. i say came down cos he was from up north. lol..
anyway, he said he booked a few nights in KL and asked me whether i wanna go sleepover and we could catch up and I was like thinking to myself, why not?, ive got nothing to lose, im single and available, ive got no attachments, so nothing could go wrong anyway, and he said that there is another friend that would be joining us and so i thought wow, 3some sleepoever... lol...
so he came the next day and we meet for the first time, we meet after 2 years of chatting online, i was excited but for some reason i dont really feel nervous. not to say dream come true but like youve been talking to someone for so long and youve connected so deeply and for so long and you finally get to meet that person, it was really important to me..
ive connected with Carter at so many levels throughout this 2 years, levels that sometimes i didnt even know exist... it was nice, it was soothing, it was comforting, the feeling was great, connecting with Carter is like how your asshole would feel after having a dump, its just so relaxing and .... just... wow.. ok maybe my metaphor is a bit disgusting but the point is there...
so meeting Carter is like the next big thing to do..
we hung out, we ate, we talked, we reconnected, we sleepover. This trip, no hankypanky happen for some reason. My slut mode was switched on, it wasnt really all sexual with Carter, maybe cos of how long weve known each other for, I just dont have the urge to sex him up, not like he did anything at all during that trip and on those few nights we were together...
oh yea, the 3rd person came and join us during the day but not the sleepover, hence we have the whole place to ourselves, but nevertheless, we behaved, so much so that i dont believe it was me, cos i will never be this good of a boy with a stranger, lol, the thing is he isnt any stranger in my mind although physically he is very much.
...to be continued...
Monday, December 1, 2014
Carter liked me since I broke up with Keith? o.O
oooooooooo....
so, for those who dont know who is Keith, Keith is my bf when I was studying in the UK, well, one of, i had 2 but whatever. anyway, i think Carter was the only friend in Malaysia that i think i told keith of, Keith knows my besties in the UK and aussie but really, to think of it, both my White British boyfriends know about Carter..
thats a good start isnt it.
haha..
anyway, I remember talking to keith about Carter all the time and they always have conversation through me in a way, like Keith would go: hey are you talking to Carter? tell him i said hi. , and then once i passed the message then Carter would go: hey Keith.. lol.. , those kinda stuffs, like the conversation will be short and simple. lol
anyway, i dont really keep in touch much with the people in malaysia when i was in UK, due to... lots of factors, mostly are excuses but... haha.. oh well... nevermind, lets not go there.. but there were a few people that i do talk to, some bloggers, and also Carter. basically Carter knows all my bf-s too, weirdly enough and vice versa.
Well, couples do have problems, and whenever something happens I would find someone close to rant and talk to and Carter would be among those. lol. Carter kinda helped solved a few of my domestic household problems with Keith so, well its a good thing la, not to say he is like some counsellor or what la but like at least i get a third person's view on the matter, unbiased.... ..... to think of it, maybe he was! LOL hahahaha.. joking joking...
i still remember that when i decided to break up with keith and move out from his place, we talked a lot then, lol, to think of it we talked very regularly so i cant really say we talked a lot then cos we do talk alot all the time anyway.
but through it all i never felt anything from him at all..
he didnt give me the vibe that he wants me, he didnt give me the vibe that he likes me..
He was just there as a friend for me.
O M G, after Keith i met little Tommy! gosh... i kept talking about Tom to Carter.. like how cute Tom is, and how big Tom's dick was and ... gosh... it must have been really hurtful to hear that now that i realize.. hahahaha...
i mean what if the person you likes talks to you about some other guy, ewww, i will just either unfriend him, or just kill myself... lol hahahaha... awww... Carter o carter, i can only imagine the jealousy that ran through you all those times.. hahahahahaha..... LOLOL... poor baby carter..
i think it shouldve been tortorous for him cos i had so much sex after that and I kinda storied it to him most of the encounters ! shit!! lol hahahahahaha.....
aww... i feel bad now. but, well, whats done is done la, its just so funny to find out about this now!!! :)
its been a month now since we started this ship, guess we will be sailing this ship for much much longer :) so far we are still sailing in the sea of honey towards the moon, hope this sail never stops ! :)
so, for those who dont know who is Keith, Keith is my bf when I was studying in the UK, well, one of, i had 2 but whatever. anyway, i think Carter was the only friend in Malaysia that i think i told keith of, Keith knows my besties in the UK and aussie but really, to think of it, both my White British boyfriends know about Carter..
thats a good start isnt it.
haha..
anyway, I remember talking to keith about Carter all the time and they always have conversation through me in a way, like Keith would go: hey are you talking to Carter? tell him i said hi. , and then once i passed the message then Carter would go: hey Keith.. lol.. , those kinda stuffs, like the conversation will be short and simple. lol
anyway, i dont really keep in touch much with the people in malaysia when i was in UK, due to... lots of factors, mostly are excuses but... haha.. oh well... nevermind, lets not go there.. but there were a few people that i do talk to, some bloggers, and also Carter. basically Carter knows all my bf-s too, weirdly enough and vice versa.
Well, couples do have problems, and whenever something happens I would find someone close to rant and talk to and Carter would be among those. lol. Carter kinda helped solved a few of my domestic household problems with Keith so, well its a good thing la, not to say he is like some counsellor or what la but like at least i get a third person's view on the matter, unbiased.... ..... to think of it, maybe he was! LOL hahahaha.. joking joking...
i still remember that when i decided to break up with keith and move out from his place, we talked a lot then, lol, to think of it we talked very regularly so i cant really say we talked a lot then cos we do talk alot all the time anyway.
but through it all i never felt anything from him at all..
he didnt give me the vibe that he wants me, he didnt give me the vibe that he likes me..
He was just there as a friend for me.
O M G, after Keith i met little Tommy! gosh... i kept talking about Tom to Carter.. like how cute Tom is, and how big Tom's dick was and ... gosh... it must have been really hurtful to hear that now that i realize.. hahahaha...
i mean what if the person you likes talks to you about some other guy, ewww, i will just either unfriend him, or just kill myself... lol hahahaha... awww... Carter o carter, i can only imagine the jealousy that ran through you all those times.. hahahahahaha..... LOLOL... poor baby carter..
i think it shouldve been tortorous for him cos i had so much sex after that and I kinda storied it to him most of the encounters ! shit!! lol hahahahahaha.....
aww... i feel bad now. but, well, whats done is done la, its just so funny to find out about this now!!! :)
its been a month now since we started this ship, guess we will be sailing this ship for much much longer :) so far we are still sailing in the sea of honey towards the moon, hope this sail never stops ! :)
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Conversation of facial hair, fatness and WiFi connection!
the same blogger friend was high on drugs last night and the following conversation was resulted..
oh, dont worry, he is not a drug addict, he has medical reasons and the side effect of his medication was the highness..
i dont maintain friendships with addicts, i dont despise them, i just dont mix with them :)
anyway....
me: ei, i misai like this nice or not?
him: nope, you look tua la.. your face no "energy"..
-.-
no misai, cut your hair, then you will make the WiFi more kuat!
but but... my Carter say I look hot wor....
he suka then i cannot comment d ...
lololol
Uncle Tuls!
*send him my current face pic*
this one looks like pedophile...
-.-
doesnt suit you la, you wait till youre 30 then you keep those hair...
lmao...
youre only 25..
hm.... you got a point hor..
children see you, will call you uncle, you will damn sad one, or those aunty aunty ask their children call you Uncle ..
fuck..
you will curse them inside, and rolleyes and after they walk away you will sure say bitch! LOL
....hm.... see my face, you think i fat or not....
you ah.... you face didnt kembang wo... just below expand.... but still fine la...
although i got bf liao but i still need to maintain one.. so that my WiFi is strong!!
yes you should!! but ok la, you still got neck, not gabung yet.. if gabung then your connection is like the old telephone cable... have to dial one...
-.- but talking about old telephone i like leh, old telephone you have to press and then turn the dial, if you do that to my nipples will turn me on one!
what? turn? how to turn?
like twist the nenepok like that, and picit, and then gigit!
...so wrong! only boobs can twist!
i got boobs ma...
yorrrrr... omg,... not yet la.. boobs is like saggy...
-.-
cos men dont wear bra...
mine not saggy...
so you see those obese one, can flip boob.. piak piak
lol big man boobs can touch, hug, hold, press, so turn on la...
ewwww... like sea cucumber k... and it will sweat!
wtf, what sweat?
sweating la.... fat people ma...
-.- i like big big guys ma... lucky Carter taller and bigger than me! :) i tell you hor, i had this fling hor, he super hot, 8 packs, toned and super kiet the body one, but once i hug i feel pain cos his body too keras d.. too hard liao
ohhhh....
so the conclusion is, train so hot punye body but sometimes nice things are just needed to be left alone after viewing, no point having them cos it will hurt you in the end...
yalor... like that guy i was talking to on grindr *sends me pic*...
wah... his body damn hot ...
yea lor.. i wanna train until like that...
good good...
he cute la, but tengok cukup..
why?
people like that jual mahal one...
LOL not everyone is like that one... *flips hair*
i want jual mahal liao also..
ok la, you try la, then you wont have any friends left jor..
LOL... nvm, i got you
-.-
ok i go sleep now, meds make me drowzy jor....
I'm Carter's visual WiFi...
so I was having a "normal" conversation with a fellow blogger...
ei, Carter is so big (he is taller than me) you can melt into his arms la..
yalor, somemore Carter "UP" very quick and easy too..
good la, sex make life happy...
yalor.. no need to touch, he see me also UP edi..
wah... like WiFi ah...
right?! i knowwwww!!!
Strong and fast, stable LOL
LOL
Line fast makes you happy!
er..... LOL hahahahahahahahahah
Upload Download also happy....
WTF......
i got one ex, he is like bluetooth one, not stable, and connection not good, so always soft one, and when i horny but he cannot UP, so stress...
o m g.. i know how it feels...
but being a good bf i need to understand also la...
hahaha.. but WiFi not everytime also stable ma... not meh?
sometimes you need to switch the modem off, cos too hot it will make the line slow.....
O M G, REALLY ARR? I DIDNT KNOW LEH... my modem at home 24/7 365days a year on one...
that is why IT server room is air conditioned one...
OMG, ONZ, i will migrate to angmo country!
but seriously, Carter is the first guy who has such reaction towards me. I never had a guy who could get hard by just looking at me, well maybe they didnt let me know, but like, lol, seriously if we hug in public even just for a second you can see his bulge already. lol. Hug any longer than a few second will make him uncomfortable and blush.... hahahaha.. how cute!! and how turned on is that!!! like seriously i feel like im a stimulant... super hotz!! hahahahahahahah.....
ei, Carter is so big (he is taller than me) you can melt into his arms la..
yalor, somemore Carter "UP" very quick and easy too..
good la, sex make life happy...
yalor.. no need to touch, he see me also UP edi..
wah... like WiFi ah...
right?! i knowwwww!!!
Strong and fast, stable LOL
LOL
Line fast makes you happy!
er..... LOL hahahahahahahahahah
Upload Download also happy....
WTF......
i got one ex, he is like bluetooth one, not stable, and connection not good, so always soft one, and when i horny but he cannot UP, so stress...
o m g.. i know how it feels...
but being a good bf i need to understand also la...
hahaha.. but WiFi not everytime also stable ma... not meh?
sometimes you need to switch the modem off, cos too hot it will make the line slow.....
O M G, REALLY ARR? I DIDNT KNOW LEH... my modem at home 24/7 365days a year on one...
that is why IT server room is air conditioned one...
OMG, ONZ, i will migrate to angmo country!
but seriously, Carter is the first guy who has such reaction towards me. I never had a guy who could get hard by just looking at me, well maybe they didnt let me know, but like, lol, seriously if we hug in public even just for a second you can see his bulge already. lol. Hug any longer than a few second will make him uncomfortable and blush.... hahahaha.. how cute!! and how turned on is that!!! like seriously i feel like im a stimulant... super hotz!! hahahahahahahah.....
Thursday, November 27, 2014
tUls, why you no draw anymore!?
so there is this odd blogger who said that he cracked at my drawings on my blog, well, used to..
and so that made me think...
why dont i draw anymore?
haha.. the answer is simple, i lost my mouse and ever since i change from desktop to laptop, i dont need a mouse anymore and i havent use a mouse since maybe for the past 3 years or so... so..... yea lor.
whoever wants me to draw in the future post please kindly present me a mouse, thanks.
if you wanna contact me, please email me la, email is on the right side. muahahahahahaha... *flip hair*
this post damn syok sendiri! :)
and so that made me think...
why dont i draw anymore?
haha.. the answer is simple, i lost my mouse and ever since i change from desktop to laptop, i dont need a mouse anymore and i havent use a mouse since maybe for the past 3 years or so... so..... yea lor.
whoever wants me to draw in the future post please kindly present me a mouse, thanks.
if you wanna contact me, please email me la, email is on the right side. muahahahahahaha... *flip hair*
this post damn syok sendiri! :)
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