we still went on being together after knowing that i will leave one day...
never knew that it would be that soon...
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its been almost 10 months now...
how have you been?
i tried to forget about you, thinking it would be the easiest way to move on.... ..
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..... it dint work...
then i tried contacting you again, subscribed you on fb, try talking and all but...
well...
distance... and time difference... lack of physical touch...
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feel like we're losing each other...
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not sure you found anyone or not....
cant really talk to you...
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not that i dont want to...
im not sure of what to ask other than what are you doing now or how are you...
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the end i know it will lead to: so..... youre still single?
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cos i know that i wouldnt want to hear the answer if youre not..
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well it would be different if i were to found someone by now...
not that i didnt try...
not that i dont want to...
its not easy....
cant really force myself into a relationship although i did and it ended quite badly......
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dont worry, its not because of you...
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at times i would scroll back and relive memories through blog entries..
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.....and thanks for deleting all your blog entries...
well at first i really hate you for doing it but i know youre just doing it for me..
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hm....
what should i do now...
doubt you even read this anymore...
its like me trying to avoid your news feed on facebook before...
i know it hurts...
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long distance is such a bitch...
the room seems colder as i type this..
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bubu, what are you doing now?
