im moving out today to another place like 200 meters away for the next uni year..
was packing half way and was whatsapping bubu then..
suddenly rerealize like we are no longer close anymore..
felt the distance and i just cant really help but to just pour out...
the feeling sux...
being in a place where theres no one to go to when i need to cos no one would understand.. good friends are all not around... those around either dont know that im gay or either too busy working...
and failing one module in the finals didnt really help at all... am quite optimistic about it and will just do my best for my repeat la.. treat it as a lesson and make sure i learn from it ..... no more fooling around next year... the last time i failed something was add maths so this "mishap" was quite a shocker to me..
i felt 100% stupider the first day i found out...
there's an asterisk on the bottom of the online result thingy and said that "results subject to change" bla bla bla so i tried opening the page everyday hoping that it will change although i know nothing will change..
im gonna go to uni and see what happen to that particular paper and where i did wrong next week...
being on placement means i have to skip work to go to uni which will add stress on top of what i have now..
where got people start working one week then take off terus one...
urgh...
so benci man...
bad impression...
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hopefully my boss will understand...
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i think bubu is in sg now for pink dot..
the thought of me not being there with him was quite overwhelming and was quite curious on who he went with but i didnt really ask cos not sure whether i wanna know or not...
haha..
oh well...
people say that i have to let go..
well...
i tried....
my tear glands was dry for a few months for exams but now...
haha...
oh well......
i really need someone here now...
but like i know no shit will happen...
i feel like ive been strong for too long...
i just need a shoulder to lie on... and cry everything out..
*hugs*
ReplyDeleteStay strong~
no matter what it is, you can overcome like you always do =D
*hugs* :)
Deletekeep hanging on!!
ReplyDeletehttp://1.bp.blogspot.com/-34Pvrjxr4Ls/TuaJs0xH9YI/AAAAAAAAAHY/wlFNJk7O4M0/s1600/hang+in+there.jpg
this is just one of those low moments that comes and goes! it will probably come again some time in the future, but each time we get back up and kicking :)
so cute la the kitten! :)
Delete*hugs*
hm... yup.. stay optimistic kan.. yup yup... thanks...
Hang in there. Shits happen before great things come along.
ReplyDeleteTry screaming to yourself in front of the mirror in the bathroom. And u'll regain all your strength before you know it.
Shoo shoo, away you low tides of Tuls. =)
haha.. like halau spirits je... lollllll...
Deletei need to work tomorrow,,, urgh... cannot think of other things...
*hugs*
before great things come along... well, will just see what is coming my way then...
*hugs*
ReplyDeleteletting it out once a while is not a bad thing..just as long as u dont get too emo k =)
:)
Deleteyou really know me......
but yea.. as much as i wanna be very emo, i wont ... cos i really dont have the time.. haha... oh well...
*hugs*
I'm coming back to UK now!!!! *buy air ticket* :((((
ReplyDeleteheyy... dont la like this... *hugs*.. you dont have to de leh... i will feel bad de... *hugs*...
DeleteI know what you mean.. Going overseas feels so foreign.. =/
ReplyDeleteLike what Jboy and Avril Lavigne says, keep holding on. =D
*hugs*
Deletethere's nothing you can say... there's nothing you can do... there's no other way when it comes to the truth..
*hugs hugs *
ReplyDeletedon't cry lah. what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
orite.. :) *hugs*
DeleteA warm hug to you. Hope everything gets better soon.
ReplyDeletei need a few days off.. im quite numb already... CX arr... you know the feeling right, like wanting someone to be there for you but there's just no one...
Delete:( ...
*hugs*
all the best at the job ya..
ReplyDeleteand being strong and weak sometimes just make u more human.. enjoy :)
what a positive note! thanks... :) *hugs*
Deletestrong and weak.. haha.. ive been very human these days... i want my non-human me back... haha... human are too vulnerable liao...
Heya... After you've finished sobbing, pick yourself up and be happy. Everyone deserves to be happy and stay happy, no matter what happens! Of course, you won't be living a good life without experiencing sadness or sorrow. Remember the Chinese saying: After the rain has stopped, the sky will eventually turn out to be clear （雨过天晴）. Who knows, you might spot a beautiful rainbow when the rain (your tears) stops!!
ReplyDeleteOh... I'm sure you notice that there are so many people (bloggers) here that are standing by your side. Cheer up. You are a lucky fella with so many good friends. (:
i know im blessed with good friends.. :) there are little rainbows behind every storm... but like.. im still searching for the big rainbow ive seen before.. but just not sure when will it appear again.. :) *hugs*
Deletei like the translation.. its so boomz... :)