Dear bubu,

You know the moment when you speak with someone over the internet for so long without knowing how they look like but you know there's a level of connection that enable further communication to continue but at the same time youre wondering how they look like kinda moment? We have that for a week before we met remember? haha... *hugs*

Well its happening again and after 16 months, i finally know how he looks like and haha.. he looks super smart and bold and kinda gave me the "omgosh he is so hot" feeling for that instance.. haha.. well, he is in Malaysia now and like, well, knowing that long distance relationships is not gonna work for me, of course nothing happen la.. haha..

We sorta plan our first date(if that happens) kinda thing liao but its just so so so vague, cos I dont even know when will i be going back and will... hm.. haha.. lets see, i'll be here for another 2 years, haha... after that pun mungkin i will continue working kot.. lol... If im attached by then maybe menge-PR-kan myself then im not going back liao... haha.. even if im going back to Malaysia pun tak tentu he will still be single or not.. lol... so for now not thinking of anything further than a day knowing that things changes everyday...

I dont know la, tibe tibe i feel like writing everything that I cant really tell you, or sometimes dont have time to talk to you and stuffs all down.. so that we can catch up, or so that You can catch up with my life... well sorta..

Finding a bf here in the UK is so so so difficult.. so far ive went for a few dates but everyone of those doesnt really continue more than once.. its either Im not their type or vice versa..

talked to a guy over grindr and he said that i should really go out into the scene... haha.. the scene here, in this ulu kampung is really quite sad.. being all alone without no close gay friends around, sometimes i wanna go out into the scene pun rasa very... i just dont dare la.. ....not like anythings gonna happen but like it would be more sensible if there's someone here with me...

at least if bored or no one to talk to at least there's someone there for me, wont be like sorang bodoh bodoh like that..

haha.. another reason i dont go out into the scene is cos i dont really drink also, not like they dont serve fizzy drinks or sparkling shit but.. i dont have enough to spend(waste) on those...

so maybe thats why im still single.. hahaha...

nah...

maybe i need to finish my final year here before thinking about all those la kan?

oh well...

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its 8.21pm here now...

im in my microfleece bath robe writing this, waiting for my turn to mandi..

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