iron tuls...

was watching iron lady last night while relaxing my mind off work for a moment..

it showed how a woman worked her way up all the way from a just a commoner to prime minister.. but the part i relate the most is the part where she had hallucinations of her husband after his death thinking that he is still around, she just dont seem to realize it at first... but in the end she finally did realize and let go...

well..

im not hallucinating to make things clear, haha... its just that...

sometimes its just so hard to accept the fact im not together with bubu anymore..

well i do think of him..

the realization part im still in denial..

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well..

our relationship is barely 2 years and we had not even gone to the stage of being comfortable..

according to wong fu production, there are several stages in a normal relationship..

first meeting, then the chase, then honeymoon, then being comfortable, tolerance, downhill, and finally breakup...

if the couple could stay at the being comfortable stage forever then that should be the best..

when tolerance is too much to ask for then it will turn bad...

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bubu and i are barely started being comfortable...

maybe thats the worst that could happen huh...

if its the first few stages it would still be easy...

being comfortable is getting used to each other's existence in our daily life making it harder and difficult for each other to live without another...

we havent reach the tolerance stage where we argue about the littlest thing in life maybe cos we havent stay together together yet...

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hm...

realization...

did i go into all too serious about all these love thing with bubu??

im still a student after all...

i should have known that this would happen...?

our educational path are still unstable, career wise still unknown.. where each of us are settling down in the end is still a mystery...

i should have just stayed single and find someone only when i start working..?

i shouldnt have ask him the question then...?

all these i should i shouldnt.... no use...

the fact that we already went through all these...

and im here for almost 6 months now..

no more turning back... well i cant really do anything about it now.. just have to look forward and maybe hope that we do cross paths in the future..

at least there would be something to look upon huh...

positive thinking positive attitude and a positive mind...

forever young and cute,
tuls