lack of attention...

ok im really lack of attention now..

like seriously..

i cant really focus last night till now..

its usually not the case..

i dont get all these kinda time wasting thoughts...

but i just...

i feel lazy...

and exam periods are just too boring and sien...

then makes me ever lonelier..

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usually i wont feel this lonely but like now its amplified like a million times...

next paper is on monday and i havent start anything till now...

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i can avoid all these feelings during term time cos there are so many distractions around, everything is happening and now its just me and the room..

this room never felt lonelier...

its cold and its raining for the past 2 days...



exam please go away fast.......

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i want someone to be by my side.. haha.. i feel so siao writing this line.. im even laughing at myself now..

its just so frustrating..

fuck independence... so what if im an independent and all, yes people look up to me: wah... tuls so independent bla bla bla but like you think its very glamourous arr?!?!

im only human..

sometimes i just need someone there for me..

there's a missing piece inside of me..

its like a withdrawal.... im so used to having someone around me and now thats just me...

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i dont want sex, its just empty...

fuck that shit...

i hate it here now..

its all out of frustration..

urgh...

its so not me omgosh...