surprise surprise!! :)

lol..

so over the summer ive been getting presents from admirers bloggers!!

first was cos i won the vogiu competition and got myself presents! from the vogiu mouth Danny..

then second was from the ever loving peace peace from singapore!! he knew i was bak kut teh insufficient and sent me some!! i was like having weekly bak kut teh meals then!!

and now the sly soulchild sent me what i pose the other day plus some other sauces and KAYA!!!!!!!!!! lalalalalala!! :)

thanks sayang-sayang sekalian, you guys are boomz la!! :)

today was quite a busy day and i was quite emo cos last night i work till half past 12 and reach home at 1am, and only get to sleep around 10 to 2 but have to wake at 7am!!!... but when i was greeted by a parcel when i open the door at home, everything just went away! :) you brighten my day la sayang... thanks thanks...

now that i know people will send me stuffs i pose in my blog then i shall pose with barang yang lebih mahal! LOLLLLLLLLL!! hahahahaha... siao kia me!! jkjk

anyway... im really tired.. i feel like i age 10 years cos today i was alone attending to all the patients cos one colleague took leave and the other started her maternity leave thing =  i never stop working since the moment i stepped into workplace... fml...

i will make bak kut teh tonight sempena mendapat hadiah lumayan! :)

xoxo

duck and cancer...

so i was working at the chinese takeaway last night and a middle aged man came in with some einstein kinda hair with the hamsap kinda look and came up to me to make an order..

heya, so what can i get you today?

hm..... let me seee........ *flip menu flip flip flip flip*

hm.... do you have roast duck?

erm.... yup, and what sauce would you like?

well, pineapple!

ok... and so, would you like it to go with chips, boiled rice or fried rice?

fried rice would be great!

alright, anything else?

mmm... can i have some prawn toast...

alright...

and some spring rolls...

ok...

and thats everything...

*went into kitchen and gave the order*

*after a minute......*



you know what? youre the first customer that ordered duck dish so far for the few weeks that i had been working here... .... i mean, maybe its cos its the most expensive dish to order i think.. (duck dishes are practically a pound or two more expensive than the other meats..)

ha... well, life is short, we'll just have to enjoy it to the fullest ei..

*smile*...

*pointing at himself* ive got myeloma, so.... i try not to think about what to eat or not to eat...

*my heart sank that instant*

then we kept talking the whole time about his family, his life, his health while waiting for his food to be prepared ..

its merely 10 15 minutes but so much went thru my mind la..

ah.....

are these signs for me not to think or worry about stuffs too much and just chill the fuck out and move on? haha....

lalalalala....

ive got only saturdays free for this week cos im working tomorrow again... and the next free day will be saturday liao...

gg....

shed a tear...

one patient came in today and i was at the reception and when she came to me i said: heya, may i help you?

she just went thru her bag and took out a piece of paper that stated an appointment with my boss and so i said that: I'll go get my boss... and so i went in to her office and told her about the patient that came for her appointment and then return to the reception area to get her: she's ready for you... just enter the room to the right..

she was sitting on a chair when i said that but she did not response..

and then i called out to her again... but she did not response as well, i mean of course she was looking elsewhere..

anyway.. so i went over out of the counter to tell her and then only she stood up after seeing me coming and then when i want to really say something she pointed to her ear and forcefully said with a low voice: im deaf...

that instant i was taken back but i didnt really show it out but just to point at the door where she would go in for her appointment..

after she entered the room i went back in behind the counter and everything just fly pass my mind...

she looks very very decent and for her to tell me that, it was really unexpected and maybe at that point i just really couldnt hold back anymore and tears just filled my eyes..

well no one noticed since the weather is so dry those tears evaporates instantly anyway..

...

then i told myself, be grateful....

i put on a smile after that and everything was good till now..

ive been struggling these few days thinking about bubu and all and like trying to talk to him and all and like.. like those hard-to-get-rid kinda ex... haha... but like... i think he has got his life to live and im just too far to make an impact on his anymore, at least for now..  letting go is not easy but like, its easier after today..

dont know la..

maybe its just a temporary feeling but like it felt better than 10 people trying to console me kinda thing...

maybe its just my own internal conflict..

conflict or not.. hopefully it will be better after this....







:)

work secured for next year! :)

thanks thanks...

:)

so my supervisor called up head office and asked and said that: tuls, as long as you get your visa sorted, you will get to work for us next year..

the delighted me went straight home and email the module leader and ask about the visa stuffs and she replied that the visa thing wont be a problem and asked me not to worry but only to focus on passing the exam next year only then the visa will be approved and with that, i can now relax and not worry about not getting job next year...

:)

i know..

thanks thanks...

i can feel people congratulating me.. lol..

but like, the visa thing, if its approved, and if the regulation doesnt change, i can only work for a year then i will have to return to malaysia liao after that..

they sorta wanna "control the number of illegal immigrant" kinda thing thats why all non essential job cant really apply for the visa that could let us stay long..

oh well..

whatever la...

by next year, when the visa expiring, i will try finding other alternatives...

hehe...

but im super happy now la !!!

its better to fast in malaysia..

lol.. i finally found another thing apart from the food that is better in malaysia than here..

fasting..

although i dont do it but like for the muslims, its better la.. haha..

in malaysia you start to fast around 7am and break fast around like 7pm? or 6? or something la kan.. ... here... you start around 2.30am and only can break fast at 9.30pm! lollllll...

lots of muslims that are working here take a whole month off just for the fasting month...

i mean, some are entitled a few months worth of holidays anyway..

but like its supposed to test your willpower and to somehow understand the need of those less fortunate... i get it la but like still.......... 2.30 till 9.30 its kinda too much.. eeeeeee... now i see my kawans that are fasting here pun i feel like dying edi...

i see them as though they are like some dying flower wilting hour by hour and to blossom back just for a mere few hours...

anyway...

happy open fasting and fasting la semua umat islam "sejenis"ku! :) lollllll....

im so so so happy la today, will update tomorrow! muacks.. im so tired... off to bed liao!! :)

airshow omgosh 2...

lol...

i went the second day myself without any friends..

haha.. not that I didnt ask them to join me, but they were either tired or not free and so i left without them..

this time the sun was not that welcoming... hiding itself behind bebola gloomy..

oh well.. but it didnt rain tho...

cos i bought the season bus ticket for work so it did me good going there free.. hehe... i reach the beach front without paying a penny(well technically paid liao la anyway...)...

maybe cos of the weather, not that hot, no one was shirtless.. what a shame..

but it help boost my imagination thou.. you will strip everyone of them in your mind! lol...

anyway this weekend is a good one la overall.. cant wait for my next outing la... urghhhh...

i think im gonna work till my new semesters start, which is a good thing, providing the company i work for still needs a helping hand la.. ...the chances seems huge tho cos my direct boss says that they need people over the summer... so hopefully i will get it la...

work again tomorrow... lalalala....

sien.

....

airshow omgosh...

the airshow was great... but the people were greater! so many hotties and im like oh my gosh.. i cant really turn to one place where there are no lengzai one...

anyway...

here are some pics la...

im going again tomorrow!! ahaahhaha.. im not desperate ok! just that the weather was nice for a change and just like boomz la!!! :) hopefully more pics coming up!! :)

1

 2

 3

 4

 5

 6

 7 ........... why is this shot blurrrrrrrrrr????????????? stupid sun!!!!!!!!!!

 8

 9

 10

 11

 12 ........... i love this pic to the max la... the boy is so cute and will be deaf by 12 years of age period.

 13

 14

:)

chinese takeaway...

well, its a weekend job for me.. i will do it after work on friday, and soon it will be on sats and sundays as well...

one night of working there could cover a week's worth of groceries! :)

well, i sit and answer calls nia..

should be quite boomz..

but im supre tyred now cross woke sins sewen in the moaning and know yeast lake too inn ze moaning..

i want die...






zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

not to say i gila duit or what, im on substitute.. lol... helping a friend out when she cant really do the job cos she cant really make it back in time from her work place and mine is just nearby...

she will be flying back to malaysia after her placement ends and i will officially take over her weekend shifts...

not like i want to, the tauke has got like some terminal illness thing and if i dont help out i will feel bad also la.. and like dah la im paid pun so why not kan?

good karma soon... soon... lol...

cant wait for the airshow tomorrow!! :) just go google AIRSHOW in UK 2012 to find out more! :) loll...

muacks!

xoxo

folliculitis...

im diagnosed with that above shit... (please dont google image the above word because its not that teruk)

like what the fuck!!

so this was how it happen... like 2 months ago, it started off from a scratch, an itch on my back and i thought it was the weather and all and i just ignored it la...

then the europe trip came and i was like omgosh no time la to go see doctor so i went and came back and omgosh...

anyway, my whole back like the whole belakang of my body was inflamed and itchy and it's bloody red and it spread to my chest and my arm pits and now my upper arm...

stupid doctors appointment i made 2 weeks ago but have to wait for a week before getting to see the sohai doctor... seriously i die liao also havent get to see the doc man if serious..

anyway.. i couldnt wait for the appointment so i told my boss and then showed a pharmacist my back and she was like: you should go to the walk in clinic...

and so i did...

and guess what...

i wait 1.5 hour for my turn and when i enter the room the nurse practitioner(here got all these fancy fancy practitioner thing one but i think lousy a bit) she say: im sorry but i dont think i cant really do anything for you, and i dont have any cream for you for it...

but...

i know... but you could go to a pharmacy and get some antihistamines if it is really itchy...

in my heart i was like: shut up bitch, you think i sohai arr? i work in a pharmacy before ok...

and so i left the walk in centre and back to work and because of that i lost 3 half hours of my break for the next 3 days cos i have to ganti the lost hours of work..

urghhh...

and so i waited for that appointment to come and when it did i was 15 mins early for it and only get to see the doc 20 mins after the designated time, one of the bloody idiot patient came in later than me but get to go in first... cibai,....

fine...

so i went in and the doc is like very rush want to finish me and see the next shit..

so anyway..

he was like saying i got that shit and gave some cream for my back and like saying that i got some secondary infection apart from that inflame shit and so i was on antibiotics a week...

he wanted to just print that prescription and i added: doctor, i think it is quite dry every time after i shower.. you have anything for me to shower? i told him that because whatever he writes on the prescription i will have it for free cos im a student ma so might as well fully utilize the condition kan?

smart me so instead of paying over RM115 for the 3 items i get it all for free... *yes*

if i know earlier i would have ask for more creams for moisturizing my badan and stuffs... haha... lol.. abusing the system... hahahaha...

anyway my back is better liao for those who wants to know how is it now..

and like can say that my sexy back sudah pulih back to normal!! :) haha...

xoxo

internet connection is back...

ok like seriously internet connection is really back and im like seriously like deprived!!

like whenever im home, i makan, mandi and just drop dead on bed...

i cant masturbate cos no nice porn, my imagination not powerful enough to generate intense feeling for my 3 meters ejaculation...

i cant watch any movies online..

i cant do my online bank transactions...

i cant do my email stuffs..

fuckkkkkkkk!!


but like thank *od la its all back now liao!!!! :)

i feel normal again..


just realize im so dependent on internet connection that it has been part of my kakitangan already..

but not to the extent of cant live without it la..

the good thing was that it brought my housemates closer cos instead of staying inrooms onlining, we sat at the common area and gossip for hours!! haha...

and recently i came out to one of my housemates.. lol...

seriously la... its easier as it goes.. haha...

sooner or later the whole world knows... hahahaha...

she was stunned for a day btw...

ok back to business!! will catch you later bloggie!! i miss you!!!..........

im still alive...

period..

will be back soon..











hopefully

:)

i passed...

so right..

that stupid mother so*ai havent fully finalize then they went and post it online damn effing soh*i right!! like what the hell.. gave me a week of acute depression for nothing and when i nearly wanted to start studying for the repeat a friend messaged me saying that his friend's result changed also from fail to pass and say that mine might be the same too so ask me to check but not to hope too high la...

and so i did...

and guess what...

my marks was added 20 extra from an almost pass to a pass so I was quite boomz and was like a small hyperactive kid screaming, fidgeting, jumping everywhere and all my housemates were like happy also la... haha...

so basically i have no more stress for now...

haha..

that s*hai result thing represent 90% for my stupid stress and now its all gone...

haha..

anyway...

thanks...(i can hear lots of people congratulate me and cursing my uni for stressing me for no reason)..








but like i have got no connection till the 17th of July so fml till then cos im so dependant on the internet and now this happen its as though im paralyzed! hahaha...

stupid virgin media is so slow la their operation.. why cant they come and fix my shit tomorrow!?!?! benci...

but yea...

at least something good this summer...

now i dont need to stress studying while working..

and just looking forward to finishing my last year and thats it...

urghhh...

tuls...

jia you!!!!






xoxo

shifted...

yup...

it took me half a day to pack my room and kitchen and 5 hours to move everything to 5 mins down the road...

my biceps are twice the size now...

after that i went for training in a chinese takeaway and will be working permanently for a couple of nights a week after my placements ends..

so im really knackered now actually...

have to iron my clothes for tomorrow lagi...

im really tired this week ...

hm...

feel like i havent had enough rest at all...

anyway.. night night bloggie...



and to everyone who sent wishes and lucks and all, dari kedalaman hatiku.. thanks...

*exhale fully*

*stand up*

*imaginary hug*






*monologue*

lots to digest...

its not the end of the world tuls... its not....