Secret in the drawer..

as usual i am the maid in the house and there are lots to clean in the house and yes, because of my procrastinatory nature, its taking forever to do so..

yesterday when i was clearing one of the drawer in the study room attached to the study table i saw an immigration form...

form for marriage...

and its dated 2011..

that was of course when Keith was still with his ex, a 6 year relationship thingy..

and it got me thinking...

were they heading towards that?

like thats the year they broke up too...

and yes he is asian too.. but of course not blessed with features as good as mine *flip hair*... anyway...

and like hm....

Keith was downstair resting then by the lazy couch and of course i didnt ask him la, i just took the form and threw it in the bin..

hm...

well the form was empty like, just that the immigration like to have the date updated yearly thats why the year was inked on the form..

....

if he were to ask the question, i think i will hesitate to answer lor..

and they say when you hesitate, the best is to stick with no..

hm...

whatever la...

the thing is my visa only allows me to work for a year and i will have to return to shitholeland and if i were to apply to work in the UK i will have to do it Malaysia and chances are really slim...

Keith and I went thru this discussion before and all he can say is: youre a smart boy, you will know what to do..

i literally -.- in my brain...

i mean.. haha..

no one knows what the future holds for us kan...

so better off not thinking about it la..

sneak peak of Keithy at the back.. :) lolllllllll

two guys kissing at the airport...

this happen in my dream one.. so i was virtually at the airport sending my friend off to Bermuda Triangle..

he was with his alltimeloverbutindenialduetocircumstances-boyfriend and before he left for the hot gates, they kissed...


15 years ago, if i were to see this.. i will go YERRRRRRRRRR O.O

10 years ago, if i were to see this.. i will go search for related porn to kill my curiosity..

5 years ago, if i were to see this.. i will go AIDS!!!!!!

now.. i go awwwwwwwwwww.....     :)


its quite different how things change with time, in life, experiences we acquire along the way and experiences we picked up could really transform a person.

like for example ignorant people will relate gay with AIDS. AIDS is step 100, being gay is step 1. we cant just jump to 100 and skip the rest in between. just like wanting a baby without having sex -.-

20 years ago AIDS would be step 3 or 4, but with advancement of the medical industry, AIDS cases are rarer and rarer now.

Back then, you will get a full blown effect of the disease and get AIDS in like what, 3 years? and then you will just die of a simple infection. With the meds now, you can live for over 20 years.

In uni, there was a lecture on HIV and there was a special acronym in it called MSM and when the lecture said that it was men who had sex with men, it was just hillarious in a way that they have such a thing. lol

So, few fun facts of HIV transmission for you guys

50% of the newly diagnoses HIV patient are MSM

if you are on HIV medication with full discipline, having unprotected sex is quite safe. lol. thats in my opinion la cos the number of virus in the blood is so low!!! 

you can live for more than 20 years if you are strict with your medications.

if you dont take your medications properly, in the long run, you will need to increase your tablets, in the UK, the highest number of tablets taken by one HIV patient is 26 tablets a day.. and you need to take it for life!!!

most of the awesome meds have ugly side effects, most of them could make you out of shape, some gives you nightmares!!

living with the disease is really very depressing like, so if you know anyone who has the disease, do not despise them. who are you to judge him or her. just dont have sex with them la!! why cannot be friends?

before i go..

if you know you have HIV and you have sex with someone who doesnt know you have it. that is wrong even if you wear condom!

if you curse someone especially me to have AIDS, you will rot on earth, and in hell!!

xoxo i love you guys..