Russel and I: first date (part 1)

so after one day of texting, one day of voice clipping and one day of skyping we decided to meet up..

he was working on Monday while I had a day off, so we planned to meet after his shifts end..

and so i dress my best and like went to our meeting point 5 minutes earlier and there i saw him, walking out the bus... as tall as tiang, i guess first glance he was really taller than me but when i stood next to him in front of a mirror, nah.... same height! *flips hair*

to be honest, he looks so much better on skype.. LMAO!

me: oh my gosh, you look so much better on skype!

Russel: oh my gosh, youre such a bitch!

hahahaahah...  i think skype has like a flaw remover kinda thing..

oh my gosh.. youre so cruel!

hahahaha... just joking...

but yea, he exudes the aura of an anime hentai freak who wears cape and into those manga thing but nah.. haha.. he just has that kinda aura of those people you would see in an anime convention! lol.. 

his dressing is a bit non gay but that is fixable! LOL

and i think he is balding too.. but its ok, im balding too, so we will be bald bald together if we really end up together..

and i think i dont really like his front profile real life, his side profile looks so hot though, maybe i will just need to keep asking him to turn side ways! hahahahahaahha.... but after awhile see biase d then ok d..

so overall i think the fact is when you like that someone, flaws here and there are kinda negligible in a way.. as in you would see pass them.. i mean like, no one is perfect anyway, and who am i to judge? lololololll....

he is such an angmo that he never had japanese before and so i brought him to one..

have you tried japanese before?

well, im....not really a fish kinda person.. but its fine... i can try...

oh no bother, there are loads of food other than fish anyway...

oh really...

yea... well, dont worry about it..

and so we went in and sat down...

have you tried bubble tea before?

er.... what?

-.- ........... well, its basically flavoured drink with spongy pearls kinda thing beneath.. lol

well, no... i have not tried before..

omgosh, this is so cool, im gonna let you have so many first when youre with me!

and so i chose a taro yam milk tea with original pearls and it was DELISHhhh!! well, he loved it! so yea...

and guess what, cos there are bento boxes on promotion and so i ordered chicken teriyaki for him and salmon for me... lmao guess what!??? they had 2 salmon sashimi and 2 salmon sashimi maki in each bento lmao! i smiled at him and: well, im gonnna swap those fish with my cucumber maki!

lmao! hahahahaha.. more fish for me! im so so so so gonna bring him to makan bento all the time! that way i will have double the fish!! lmao hahahahaha...

and guess what? he beat me in using chopsticks...

im gonna try and use this...

-.- im asian and i dont even use this...

well, i dont care, im gonna use this...

well, you will only finish your meal in 2 hours if you do so!

-.- no im not!

hello, excuse me(nods at waitress), may i have 2 spoons please?YEand some pickled ginger, some wasabi and extra teriyaki sauce thanksS....

yes i know, i should let her finish but customer is always right! bluek!

and no he did not touch the spoon at all but i on the other hand used the spoon all the way...

wow, thats really impressive!! i will never get to do that! well, as in i could but i will be quite stressed and agitated when i cant get the rice up with chopsticks..

then he kembang..

whatever...

so, how do you like japanese? well, its not too bad! i really like the bubble tea tho, you sure you never had it before? yea... but i thought you like asians? yea, the boys.... -.- but usually i thought those who like asian boys would love asian food as well? youre assuming! maybe sooo....

and so we finished our meal.. 

to be continued...

unexpected exchange over grindr!!

i was having my usual lunch break on friday when i switched on grindr, moments later, a message popped up that goes like this:

i just joined grindr, and instantly your picture pops up, i just felt like i should let you know you look dashing in that outfit. hehe, you suit it, and the bow tie is really cute.

haha..

that really put a smile straight to my face.. and i felt that this is gonna be good and true enough i spent my whole afternoon juggling between work and talking to him..

conversation flow just so smoothly even if my work was in the way...

i couldnt take my hands of grindr.. well, my attention was solely towards that conversation and for the first time i did not even go back to see who else texted us there..

guess what, he is a virgin.

gosh! am i really such a virgin magnet?! seriously..

haha..

anyway, as we chatted on, we found so many similarities between us, this is the first time in a long time since i felt this way, we are of the same age, the same height, the same weight, same number of siblings and same # in terms of ranking, same values, same goals in relationships..

and we have our difference too, he is white who is attracted to asians, im the opposite, he could speak dutch italian french and a little german and tagalog and I could speak mandarin kantonese malay and a little korean and jap and tamil lol(perasan) but English unites us, we kinda say that he conquers the west while i rule the east! lol hahahaha....

he is such a breath of fresh air and is never ever totally not someone i would expect to find or talk to on grindr..

since then i have intention or the urge to talk to anyone else..

did i mention that he has long curly hair? like if i were to date him he would be my first ever guy with long hair!

he is fully out and is super super cute! and did i mention that he is 6'1? omgosh!! so hot!!!!

well i havent met him real life but as we chatted on in grindr, we kinda upgrade to whatsapp shortly and started to send voice clips, omgosh his accent is so so so so americanized! like a total american! did i mention that he is Belgian? hahahaha... he is so fair!! and im tan!! 

saturday morning we then upgraded to skype and since then we started skyping all day! hahaha.. i mean i went out in the noon for a meal and movie with other friends but after coming home we skyped thru the whole evening and till now...

im just so...

he is just so... wow.. i even told myself that if I would want to find someone like him in the future!

we clicked like at so many levels!!!

well, im obviously attracted to him!

and he is obviously the same!

and for him being a v and a noob i kinda go slow on him..

i wouldnt wanna do anything with him until i have a confirmation that i can stay here to work.. i dont want another heartbreak to happen 2 months down the line if things dont work out right..

hm..

i think this is the right time, like he came at the right time, like he would be another motivation for me to stay here and fight for what i want...

remember my criteria of boyfriend? well, guess what? he MET ALL OF THEM! LIKE ALL!!! OMGOSH!!!!!

really! TIAN AHHH......

im gonna go sleep now and have sweet dreams now! hahahaha...

i miss you guys alot! muacks...

i shall name him........ Russel because Brussels is the capital for belgium! So yea, Russel it is!

its ok if it didnt work out as long as you tried and gave your all...

my dad used to force me to eat fruits, which i clearly hate. He always say, try it! try it! if you don't like it spit it out! but nah, im not that adventurous, if i think its disgusting i wont even try it.

but this is a total different topic of trying! lol.. i dont even know why i wrote the above paragraph! lol..

anyway, lil Tom Tom and I are officially just FRIENDS now..

nothing more. nothing less.

we are sexually compatible but sexual-drively not. His sex drive is not as high as mine and I thought: "ok, fine, it's just sex, sex does not define a relationship". I was so wrong. Well maybe if im 82 and dying, i might ignore the sex and just go on with life but at the age of 24 and not having sex for months is just too much for me..

haha..

i know, i feel like a horrible person to say this..

we have the right moment, the right opportunity and everything, but he just does not want it.

Splantz said to me that: Two person's sex drive must be compatible cos if not one will be begging for it. 

and begging seems like the condition that I would be in and it almost drive me nuts..

We talked about it several times before this and I thought to myself its only sex, its fine, its only sex, you love him, sex does not matter..

it does, apparently.

maybe its just me, i dont know.

but after this, i will find someone with the right sex drive to be with even if i have to sleep with them first before going in deeper into a relationship, cos my first ex, bubu, keith, the drive is just there! and i dont need to do anything, maybe lil Tom Tom is just inexperienced and is not that keen.. i dont know, i dont know what is on his mind, i dont know what he wants, we tried talking about it but he doesnt want to tell...

so that was it...

a close friend said it was karma for me cos im a crazy sex person all my life and now sexless for months...

another friend then explain wtf is karma and said the previous friend is wrong in terms of calling it karma..

crazy friends i have, i know, and they are reading this now! lol..

anyway breaking up is not easy, and is not like we are officially together anyway but... i was quite clear of my intentions and we both were quite down and that moment, i never liked parting with people i love, like keith, and bubu, both whom i still love dearly... 

hm....

well, its the end of a chapter, turn over a new dildo and start afresh! lol...

with bubu my blog just bloom with ideas and posts... i think the more i post means the bettter the mood that im in... and i think that is quite a direct reflection in a way which i just realized...

i need that spark back...

and i think since im single and available now, i shallll retrieve my T U L S title back and roam the streets of UK! 

muahahahahahaha....

new boyfriend applicants please apply within, submit your harRESUME(harrass me) to the email on the top right column! :)

xoxo

another set of mens for you!

do not run away from problems...

i realize something today..

i stumbled upon a significant problem.. the problem has a two solutions. One is simple and straight forward while the other requires more of a fix..

lets give an example of a luxury watch..

you have that luxury watch for just a few months but the mechanism of the watch is knackered in a way. with all the riches you have you can easily replace and get a new watch. although that seems to be an easy option why dont we try fixing it before getting a new one?

well some of you may argue or come up with several other solutions but the problem of my case is no luxury watch but just of an example..

ive made the same mistakes a few times... so its now time to try and fix it rather than to take the easy way out..

only if its beyond repair will i replace it but... we shall just give it some time and hopefully it will bear fruits that no tree could grow, although it seems a little farfetch or exaggerated but we human always hope for the very best and stay optimistic although sometimes chances of what it should be is really slim...

life is a funny...

anyhow i shall present you with the next set of mens from London :)