i WAS A TULS...: June 2012

Saturday, June 30, 2012

shit happens...

im moving out today to another place like 200 meters away for the next uni year..

was packing half way and was whatsapping bubu then..

suddenly rerealize like we are no longer close anymore..

felt the distance and i just cant really help but to just pour out...

the feeling sux...

being in a place where theres no one to go to when i need to cos no one would understand.. good friends are all not around... those around either dont know that im gay or either too busy working...

and failing one module in the finals didnt really help at all... am quite optimistic about it and will just do my best for my repeat la.. treat it as a lesson and make sure i learn from it ..... no more fooling around next year... the last time i failed something was add maths so this "mishap" was quite a shocker to me..

i felt 100% stupider the first day i found out...

there's an asterisk on the bottom of the online result thingy and said that "results subject to change" bla bla bla so i tried opening the page everyday hoping that it will change although i know nothing will change..

im gonna go to uni and see what happen to that particular paper and where i did wrong next week...

being on placement means i have to skip work to go to uni which will add stress on top of what i have now..

where got people start working one week then take off terus one...

urgh...

so benci man...

bad impression...

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hopefully my boss will understand...

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i think bubu is in sg now for pink dot..

the thought of me not being there with him was quite overwhelming and was quite curious on who he went with but i didnt really ask cos not sure whether i wanna know or not...

haha..

oh well...

people say that i have to let go..

well...

i tried....

my tear glands was dry for a few months for exams but now...

haha...

oh well......

i really need someone here now...

but like i know no shit will happen...

i feel like ive been strong for too long...

i just need a shoulder to lie on... and cry everything out..

Friday, June 29, 2012

Italy Spotted Hotties...

24 GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY... LOL....

which is your pick? lol......

Thursday, June 28, 2012

bubu is everywhere...

everywhere i go, i hear his name...

bubu has this ancient biblical name kinda thing and being in this ancient country, i cant but to hear his name everywhere...

my landlord, university's reception guy, the security guard, my lecturers and now even my colleague omg...

hahaha...

its not like i wanna avoid him or what.. haha..

sometimes i just look at them, those with bubu's name, then i pause.. and then smile stupidly...

oh well...

i thought after working i wont really think of him but...

haha....

oh welllllllllllllllllllllllllll!!!............... :)

i will just have to miss him secretly ba...

dont think he reads me blog anymore..

anyway, next up would be spotted guys from Italia!

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

Spain Spotted Hotties...

they are not all spanish therefore the title... lol...

enjoy...

italy and france will be up when im a lil more free...

been busy with work in the morn and packing at night, moving to my new place when the contract ends by month end!! cant wait!!!

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