blowjob scare, bottoms blowing bottoms, so what?!

hey, you wanna get a deepthroat? i give the best blowjob, no teeth, very nice, you will like it..

i was like.... i think im too horny already and not everyone can really stimulate me to make me hard that easily but fuck it i said yes..

yup

surprisingly he lives round the corner and i was there in no time...

i walked into his room after him pointing me towards it asking me to enter as he closes he apartment front door.. in no time he stripped me down naked and he started to blow me...

gosh it was so exhilarating and it made me hard instantly and everything he said was true..

so after about 3-4 minutes i was like: hey, do you wanna take your clothes off?

.....*shakes head*.....

then i pulled his t shirt a little indicating that i want him to take it off and only then he took it off...

after a few more minutes i was like... take your pants off

*shakes head*

take it off now!

...*mouth still blowing me: no*.....

why not?

he ignored me...

take it off.... i try pulling his pants down but he grabbed my butt even tighter and blow me even harder...

fuck...

then i try pushing him away but it made the bj better cos he was sucking it so hard as he doesnt wanna stop blowing and i was like in my mind thinking what the fuck is this guy trying to do...

fuck...

he keep blowing me hard and fast and i was like having crazy thoughts in my brain...

why does he wanna hide his dick?

does he have a dick?

is he trans?

omgosh does he have some STD?

or is his dick really small?

or is his dick deformed? you can imagine all the crazy thought that a person could imagine....

and then this time i really push him hard enough for him to release my dick from his suction and i asked him: why do you not wanna take your pants off? you got STD?

NOLA!! crazy meh....

then?

i dont want you to fuck me later

-.-

.....

im a bottom i wont fuck you!

.... -.- .....


his moood just died....

what happened?

i didnt expect you to be a bottom

err.... ok? didnt my profile say that im a bottom?

these sohai people really didnt read a shit...

well, so what if im bottom? 

he just smiled...

so i say: well, i can speed up the process and cum now if you want...

yea....

then i DIY... and i edge all my cum to the point of blasting and i asked him where do you want me to shoot?

shoot it in my mouth...

-.- in my head i was like: i thought your mood died but you still want my cum ? -.-

and i asked him: you sure?

then i just shoot it all in and i was correct, he swallowed....




but seriously, whats wrong if i was a bottom if all you want is just a blowjob? does it make it less sexier? -.- you can really tell that as though he just cum and lost all sex interest when he heard that i was bottom -.-

in a way its a good reassurance point like what Kiddystick told me saying that I look like a TOP! muahahahahahaha.... Kiddystick we should meet up, you should meet the TOP TULS! lol

if i have a bottom in front of me with a thick tool i would blow him like crazy... wtf man seriously wtf...

you control your own destiny...

hey, youre not back for 3 years, not homesick arr?

my honest answer. no.

one of my cousins said that im being ungrateful, thinking that malaysia is not good enough for me..

arent you lonely? i mean i know you dont really have anyone there, no family whatsoever right?

i think i love the freedom and im not afraid of being lonely... i rather be lonely than to be back home..

if im alone in the UK i would usually just walk to the beach and clear ma mind, breathe in the sea breeze, its just so calming... well its easy for me as i live near the sea...

i can easily drive out to the gay scene and just go to saunas or pubs and mingle.. and of course also enjoy the sex there.. without fear of raids whatsoever...

i feel like i was born in the wrong country.. lol.. the western culture especially the gay-tolerant culture is more suitable for people like us...

im not homesick doesnt mean that i dont have my family values and shiz.. i love my family, but no one can stop me when it comes to what i want in life.. i guess everyone should live a life of their own and not someone else's. i would respect if you would want to go home after your studies from overseas because family comes first for you. but i would despise you if you were to go home just because your family wants you to and its not your own intention..

we are all living beings and each one of us should in a way control our own destiny. 

i love my family and i know that no matter what i do in life, i know that as long i am happy, my family would be happy too. sometimes they might not agree with what you do, but it doesnt mean it is the wrong thing to do.

are you afraid of dying?

its just a general thought.

are you afraid of dying? the answer would probably be yes. unless youre a 10 year old boy whom was asked a question in front of the class trying to answer it but at the same time trying to be macho. thats besides the point.

what is there to fear? nothing. because we dont really know what happens after that, and therefore the outcome is unforeseeable. when people encounter these kinda situation, something that they dont comprehend, the common thing to do is to ignore it and push it aside, until something happens that makes you feel closer to death.

is there really heaven and hell? no one really knows.

i assume that it is something people pass down from generation to generation, even penning it down into story books and stuffs just to cover up the uncertainty of life after death, or just death.

when someone close to you dies, everyone around you will console you and say: he is going to heaven...

when someone hurts you, you curse him and pray that he goes to hell...

it is so commercialised to a point where we dont really feel or even think what is really there...



i dont know why am i writing this down. or why the sudden thought of the topic. i guess this is what happens when i have too much free time now that i am having a break from work.




back to the question, are you afraid of dying?
no normal person in the right mind would know how to answer it.
i can only assume that if you are dying, you will be so afraid, so confused, asking why is this happening to me, trying to seek forgiveness from those we have hurt and trying to make full use of the remaining time we have left living as a person.

but can you imagine what would be going through a person's mind if he is dying?
no. nothing. everyone reacts differently.

those who cant understand it might just go crazy. if its an illness, he or she might not even have the strength to even digest the situation. some people just die in a coma, some die from infection, some in vehicle accidents, they dont even have the time to think about dying. but what if, what if the person is suffering from HIV? or cancer? those conditions could be long term taking up to a few decades or it could be as short as a week before it kills you. for now there isnt a cure for those.

can you imagine what would you do or feel if you found out you are infected with HIV?

or if you have cancer?



people would say they will make full use of their remaining time in their life to make amends and do whatever they have not done, experience and live each day like its their last.

but can you imagine doing all that with a big reminder in your head: you are going to die...

nah...

i dont think anyone could make full use of their remaining time not worrying and feel distress about stuffs..

we can't really blame sufferers for feeling that way, because we dont feel that way and we wont understand how they feel.

we can't just ask them to stay positive, how and where are they gonna try to draw that positive energy from when there is a big negative planted in their mind.

if you met someone who is facing death and is really really optimistic, you are just lucky. but you will always need to remember that behind those smile, it hurts each time and it scares them each time the thought of dying happens. you cant stop someone from thinking something they know. you can always distract them but thats just a temporary escape from reality.

my point or what i am trying to say in this short post is that, its not easy living a life when you know youre dying, no one will ever understand what you are going through as emotions like that cant be described by words, but always remember that no matter what happens, you still have friends and family that loves you.

sometimes they might not understand you for making the decisions you chose, you will have to be the better man and laugh it off, they might love you too much to not understand your actions. you can ask why should you understand what people dont and choose to not bother, but thats just your own choice.

to those who understand even the slightest bit, you will be happy to know that they are gonna be there no matter what, physically, emotionally and in spirit. you can give up on life, but dont give up on your friends and family.




im only 25, i feel like 69. haha. i wanna be 7! can i? :)

i am back!

so, its official.

i am back in hellhole country.

it is summer all year long with high of 37 degrees celcius and low of 26 bless my soul!

i started sweating as a stepped out of the plane and my o my it was pouring! i sweat when i walk, i sweat when i sit, i sweat wherever as long as there is no air conditioning. Like crazy. I am not complaining, I am just ranting! lol hahahahaha... i should be used to the heat since im born here but nah, have to readjust after so long..

i've recently got a new temporary phone and phone number so whoever who wants to keep contact please pm me on facebook or just send us an email and i will revert back to you as soon as possible, for those who think they do not need to give me their number since ive got their whatsapp please reconsider as my old phone was rresetted for some effing reason and everything was erased, all my homemade porn etc.. lol joking...

anyway, its good to be back for the right reason but mostly wrong if im being honest! lol...

my sweat is dripping down from my chin as we speak and it is not a pleasant sight! please beware when you wanna meet ok! :)

and i welcome everyone back here and hopefully we shall meet up soon! :)

muacks xoxo..