ive been thinking alot..
i should be sleeping right now..
watched glee and the vow today just to let my mind off books for a day then continue on tomorrow but yea..
ive been thinking..
see now at this tender age of mine *flips hair* im kinda like attracted to guys that are older, i mean, im not sure whether im generalizing it to the people of my kinda age or is it just me but yea..
i dont, like have a thing for daddies or what but well if they dress properly, nicely shaved and cushiony, i might just consider you know.. haha..
i mean i have a few candidates in mind actually..
but that aside.. thinking about me in 10 years time, i would be in my prime age of 30s but the old daddy might be saggy and mati pucuk, i emphasize again, MIGHT, and the thing is by then, will i still be attracted to him?
i mean, as a real life human being you need to have that spark and hopefully it will last throughout your life with that special someone.. yes its true that once youve got him and if its true love bla bla bla it will last you a long time etc etc but like what if its not there then?
so.. me in my 30s would be like a candidate for people like the old me to consider as a potential guy then and so then i would have to sort to younger guys?
like seriously?! hahahaha.. i cant imagine... lollll..
well ive always like a top thats cute but... a pedophile doesnt seem to fit me that well.. lol..
im like thinking, do i really want a daddy just because like im here in a foreign land and want someone to be there and support and all till im like stable and all.. like someone there to help you kickstart your life.
am i not thinking right?
should i find someone around my age and like at least we can grow old together kinda thing..?
they say love is blind la, when it comes it comes la, you dont really choose la, it comes in any form la and all those cliche things you hear but yea..
well i know there is no point of me going through all these.. i dowana be labelled as the guy who uses these daddies to get what i want kinda thing but like yea..
its just something to ponder..
well bubu is my age and its nice to you know like grow old together and all, but like if he is not yours then he is not.. i mean.. i would wanna see him happy and all.. well.......i really miss him a lot... like... like really a lot but yea.. i cant like do anything about it now.. haha... too much drama.. shouldnt watch The Vow.. haha..
as long as he is happy..