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t u l s

Monday, March 10, 2014

i'm an addict... and it killed me inside out...

i didnt know it could be that bad..

i thought it was normal.. i thought it was ok...

but it got worse...



for the past month i was constantly tired and weak... during the day, at work, back from work and night... practically i was feeling that way the whole time..

it started off as a routine.. but it got worse..

i wasnt focused, i wasnt doing anything beneficial, i was really wasting a lot of time, and a lot of energy.. i even fall sick at one point...

i only spend 4 hours to sleep each night where it could have been twice the amount...

yesterday was the worst, i didnt sleep at all...

when i finish and wants to sleep the sun is already hanging up high and i just realize ive got an appointment that morning...

my heart was aching from all those hours of not sleeping, my face looks like crap, my body went out of shape, my eyes looks terrible...

basically im a wreck...

i can control it, i can avoid it.. but im addicted to it..


when the night finally kick in, i slept a good whole 10 hours...

today im feeling so so good, my eyes were not shutting at all when i was at work, im not yawning, i feel so spirited, so energetic, i feel so alive...

i feel like a whole new person...






but the time of night is here again...

its is now..

9.20pm..

my hand is going down into my pants...

but my mind says you better not touch it or else you will regret it...


masturbation is good for you...

do it excessively and you will waste all your time on it..

i edge for 7 hours on sunday morning and the outcome was good, the splash was good, i gave it a score of 12/10....

i lost all my sleep..

i lost my time..

i lost my life...

i have no energy...

no mood..

and no everything... .....not even a morning erection..



i hope i can overcome this...

no one can help me but myself...

5 comments:

  1. OH MY! U need to stop watching porn! Go out with some unattractive people and divert your attention. And dun think about me, Coz i don't want you to make it worse...

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  2. Holy cow... seriously? 7 hours!!!! non-stop? That's some serious dedication and patience....

    honestly, if you really feel the urge maybe you should just force yourself to cum sooner so that you can sleep.....

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  3. It's good but you need rest le..

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  4. anything done in extreme is bad. moderation tuls...

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