There isnt a time where i feel like i could have done better if i were able to turn back time. It was a good experience and relationship for me. They say you can never forget your first or the first cut is the deepest, i dont think it really feels that way to me. It would have hurt like crazy but maybe cos our love or at least my love towards him kinda die over time, it did not really hit me that hard.
I was the one who asked for the break and according to him he teared for a few days. Well we kinda still talk after that and thats how i know. I think we totally stop talking a month after that. Im not sure the reason why but i dont think i need a reason for that anyway. He is the only ex that i did not keep in contact with up till now. Its been 7 years and hopefully it stays that way. I wouldnt want anymore drama in my life haha.
honestly he did try to contact me through fb but i ignored it. that was a few years back and i think i did the right thing.
if there is one thing i wanna say to him if i met him is to thank him for the valuable experience. i have the imaginary meet in my mind. we kinda bumped into each other in the mall and have fake exchanges of hello and how are you and all those shit while holding my bf beside me so close, maybe a small peck or what not. lol. such a show off. typical show off stunt to display that im so much better off without him LOL... i feel so bitchy thinking of it. lol
since babyZ i kinda came up with a list of criterias that i would wanna see in a potential bf candidate! i did post it before HERE and HERE but i will put it up once again! :)
well there you go, an inspired list after breaking up with my first love! the list kinda change as we go along!!
babyZ is shorter than me by a head, it wasnt a problem at first but it kinda did as things got worse between us. feels like im going out with my little brother or like im babysitting lol. i dont mind having shorter friends but boyfriend criteria must be tall la! lol...
babyZ is younger so that explain the next criteria.
the 5 big X are my principle in life.
the rest are quite self explanatory :)