my first POZ friend...

hey tuls, haven't met for a long time!! wanna meet up?

that was a text on facebook after 7 years of not meeting. he was my mate in highschool. we were close back then but of course with time, we grew apart minding our own little lives...

Carter gave the green light as we were reading that message together and after a few hours i was out the door to a cafe nearby...

he lost weight, a little darker than before, still tall as usual... still lame and funny.

we talk about everything under the sun, him and his life... work... studies... his big promotion...

me and my UK, studies, work, and basically everything to sum up the 7 years of absence...

and then...

he came out to me...

he used to have a gf... that being said, it's not an excuse for me to exclude him from the gay equation but i just never would have thought that he is.. maybe cos we used to be so close that the thought never came up?

anyway...

he told me about his sluttiness...

the usual...

not to say all gays fuck around... but like... with the apps and all, it's not as hard as it used to be...

i didnt hold back in telling him a little extra about myself too... and with that i came out to him too... not a surprise to him it seems, i wonder why........lol

anyway....

just when i thought that he fully came out from the closet, the next news he told me send him straight back in to where he started...

he is infected.

shutting himself out from everyone... well, except his bf...

i was so curious.... does your bf know?

yes, but he refuse to leave me, he is the one kinda taking care of me now..

wow...

its been 2 years...

oh... wow....       are you on meds?

yea... it's my first week...

oh.... ok. huh, as in... your CD4 just only drop? i mean like usually treatment starts when your CD4 count drops below a certain level...? and if im not wrong, current guidelines recommend to commence treatment as soon as infection is detected no?

hm... yea.... but.... i wasn't ready... so yea....

2 years huh.....

hm.....

you know who you got it from?

erm.... nope...

wait... do you bottom much?

well, i tried once but i didnt enjoy it...

oh, i mean like usually bottoms are more prone according to survey...

hm....

like.... do you use protection...?

er........... ..... ...... ......


with that pause, i knew he never use it at all...


how did you found out at first anyway?

one day when my bf and i wanted to do it.. we started kissing and he went down... as he was going to give me a bj, he stopped and said that there were red dots all over my dick and asked me to go get checked just incase...

hm....

i went... ....and i had Syph and also HIV....

2 in 1 combo...

haha... yea....   syph was gone after antibiotics... but yea...  before that too i kept falling sick and i have shingles and stuffs... i didnt realize i was infected then...

and like your bf... is he?

no.... he is not...

and he sticks with you till now? o m g how long have you guys been together?

3 years..

ok... win liao... like these kinda bf is rare and extinct!

hmm... yea....

..... you guys.... still do it?

no...

o m g! 3 years, no sex?

yup....

i will die if i monk for 3 months... lol..


and with that, i have my first POZ friend! lol. not that im collecting types of friends or what. but like, i mean i do know friends that are POZ that doesn't know that i know, usually through gossips... but like this is a friend that tells me directly. so yea, that makes him my first.

sky was pouring...

the heavens are crying....

it was gloomy and so i suggested that we go for a karaoke session and sing all our sorrows away...

2 years of knowing and preparing himself to start on a lifelong decision, taking meds on time is crucial because even taking an hour late from the proposed time could help the virus gain resistance to the current meds... HIV meds will keep increasing in that manner... i know a patient who was taking 40 tablets a day to control his infection. thats like crazy a lot. and hiv tablets are fucking huge.

so.... any side effects from the meds ?

haha.... i was flying ....

lol... like what? like high?

yup... sometimes i couldnt even get up in the morning... lol .... i think i need to get a doctors letter saying that im on meds that could make me woozy in the morning... lol... dowan later my company thinks i ponteng....

hm... true true....

o m g! no wonder you're so thin!!!

= ="

i also wanna be thin!

i slap you!



be safe people, be safe...
tuls