copied and pasted from (click on the title below) and added my own comment in it la in PINK.. muahahahaha...
I have been wondering can a gay like me find a lover who is manly/masculine?duh!!! Or are we gays just limited in the circle of soft guys? =.= youre stereotyping la kawan, where are you now arr? in Singapore or in Malaysia? i memang dont really know! haha.... I don't know. I am quite new in this circle of people. Through FB, I got to know some of my old friends are gay, based on their likes, subscriptions and mutual friends very common la, thats how i detect other gays too, by using high profile gay friends on fb!! hahahaha.... Sadly, they are all soft guys (I am NOT AGAINST them, just not sexually attracted).
I do not have Grindr (no money to buy smartphome) nor an account at gay social networking website. I only read gay blogs(Y). I do have an account at TT1069 but is just an observer there. I din not make any friends there.
I am sexually attracted to guys but only the ones who are more masculine in nature, Not necessarily body but the look, character, etc.
*Guys who are indecisiveme,, reservedme in certain ways, "bookworm", homelyme at times, gentle(talk softly), obedientto my boyfriend (cincai in a way girls take advantage), over tolerantme (cincai again), over friendlyme, funnyme (talk lame jokes), smile too oftenme put me off.=.= 70% describe me le i put you off arr? nia**! hahahahaha... I don't know why, just simply not attracted to them (Proof = No excited Heartbeat). -----------I met quite a number of them during university years and stayed with them for years some more, really sad and suffocating.... =.= youre such a byatch! hahahaha... you cant just suffocate just because they are born that way!! reason not valid!!!! *SLAP*
*I like guys who are more out going, open minded, smart, aggressive, independent, out-spoken, brave, decisive, gentle (only to me) and also protective (only to me) (heart beats very fast!!!).
They can really bring me the sense of security and reliability. I just can't explain the feelings.. I am such a nerd. I also like them to dominate me on bed.. Hahaha... guys like that doesnt exist anymore, if they do, surely taken one.. so just give up hope la... and when you find someone 50% that matches your criteria just take it k, the other 50% of his flaws you will have to learn how to accept them, it might decrease after awhile cos they will upgrade themselves sometimes.. flaws make them human, no one is perfect ok brother..
and the dominate me on bed part is sososososo BOTTOM!! like me! muahahahahahaha *high 5* is damn syok one ok!! you will experience it soon, i can feel!, maybe la maybe.. hahahahaha :)
Strangely, I do not find Wang Lee Hom that attractive good, dont have to compete with me, less one competition the better, but i heard he is bottom wor, how arr.. i want leh... :( but cannot... oh well..... Although handsome yes, he is too artisticis that a problem?=.=, emo (love songs) and not the manly type I like (personal opinion k!!! :p i die die also wanna kutuk!!!)
I did meet str8 guys(although not really handsome and not all the qualities I mentioned) like this in my life but they are of a different race (DON'T WANT MENTION WHAT RACE HERE, DON'T WANT TO INCITE RACISM). They really make good friends. They were concerned about me, asked about my results and offered help when necessary. They touched me (as a greeting) and I touched them back=.= sounds damn wrong. They share their life with me, porn (although str8) and treated me to meals. I would treat them back. When I said I did not want to get married, they were concerned and asked a lot about the reason. They said would help if I had any problems. I did not tell them though I am gay. We shared same drinks and food. I felt so close to be with them. When I was in trouble, they would offer a lending hand, praise me when I have done something well. My confidence level was increased after knowing them. I soon became quite good at presentation.
They are so sweet and a gave me a sense of bond and belonging!!
I never had any sexual thoughts towards them. I just wonder can I meet a prince like that to be my lover or...... if that is too much.a request.. just a part time lover? And.. can that person be a Chinese?? I never met a Chinese guy like this.. I do not have that luck..not about luck la, more like youre still a student, wait, how young are you arr? if youre a student of course la, you havent go out to the working world yet, so many fishes out there ok!! sure got chinese like that one, in the streets everywhere, omgosh, just open your eyes, :) next time when legal liao(or maybe sudah) then go clubs and stuffs, go for functions and musical plays, they are everywhere!! and no need to be chinese one, so picky, youre narrowing your options down liao, other races are quite good also as long as they have the qualities, why not? sleep on it ok! :)
I think soft guys (moderate or severe) like me will not be liked by masculine guys=.= youre assuming, which is wrong! never assume stuffs, you need evidence to prove that ok! those who think that way are quite shallow, very superficial!! :p. This is just a fantasy and a wishful thought... That is why I am writing here to release stress, Or at least, can I have a chance to make friends with them to understand them better?? I have no any bad intention, just want to understand their sexual feelings,..... I am a guy who does not understand guy (handsome and masculine ones), I am curious... slowly la, can feel that youre still young, at heart at least.. hahahaahha...
Wow, he is really not "gentle" in his eyes..He means business.. I like it. > i no like the colour combination, next!!
crying tits!! ooooooo... *lick lick*
Mr policemen on the right, can you protect me forever? > looks like a nerdy aaron kwok!! :)
< Again! this is the body I would like to lean on.. Not too big nor small.
lean only? i can jump on it and beg him to rape me lor if im single! hahahahahaha... im such a TULS!!!
If I could choose, I would really want to be a real guy or a gal, not somewhere in between because society has no place for them (in this case, me). Been feeling out of place and my confidence and sense of well being has been shattered. I feel lifeless. awwwww..... bless ya! well, baby you are born this way, so just accept it la, you dont have to change yourself for anyone ok.. no such thing as no place for people like you ok, never think that, and always remember that you are not alone! all you need to do now is pick the shattered pieces up, place them back, frame it up, although you have crack lines all over, each one of it is a lesson learned, once you have that beautiful frame holding all the pieces together, you then could proudly hang it up and display for everyone to see.. those who knows how to appreciate real art, would buy that piece, and that would be your future boyfriend, so hold on to that thought ok! always think positive and hold on to something, a hope for your future! and dont regret anything you did, always think forward!! *hugs* the gay community will always be there for you! well at least, in this sense, the gay blog community will! right??!? :)