its not that im coming back home..
bubu and i mutually agreed to separate(yay!!! ok fine those who were expecting this to happen you can rejoice now!! *rolleyes*)..
haha.. some of you might say: so fast cannot tahan..
for those who survived long distance relationship then good for you la thats all i can say..
its not easy to be on constant missing someone and when you are expecting him to be on skype and he is not there due to some reasons and being not able to tell you and you tend to wait for hours only to feel super exhausted in the end.. its usually him waiting for me..
its not easy to be waking up to his bed time.. being 7 hours behind time complicates everything.. when i come home from uni he will be sleeping soon and when i wake up he will be out.. contact time definitely is reduced drastically..
its kinda a relieved in a sense that i dont need to be constant worried about him seeing his friends, or go to the clubs, whether will he make friends with the wrong bunch, or whether someone is cow-ing him or something..
i dont have to be jealous, i wont need to doubt him, i wont need to question(or maybe argue with) him, not say that i dont care but at least if he really were to go out and mingle i wont feel that bad now that we are not together..
its not like im gonna take this opportunity to slut around(you guys are thinking it huh!!??)... think what you want to think la.. a slut can never change its spots la whatever la..
its so hard for me to cry but i did break down one day in front of bubu over skype.. haha.. to think of it happening is so funny cos i look so ugly then(not like im very good looking to start with)...
so whoever who wants to cow bubu, please go ahead.. he is a free man now lol
please dont ask me to stay strong or try to comfort me cos there is no need to do so..
im perfectly fine..
i think about him everyday like he is with me so i dont feel like its a break up and we still keep in touch everyday(its not an open relationship cos we dont believe in it)..
why not still continue long distance you ask....?
its not as easy as you think...
if we were to meet again in future... haha.. sometimes you create your own fate, but if really there is fate we will definitely meet each other again!
its not a sad post!! lol