mature?

when is the right age to act and be mature?

when youre with your loved ones, you tend to put the mature side of you at rest and just be yourself and be comfortable... do you do that? i do that alot..

but do you need to be mature in a relationship? yes of course, like duh...

how do you consider mature?

what if im a serious and mature when im doing my job and studies but when it comes to relationship, im as childish as a 10 year old.. is that acceptable?

yes, you may say if you love somebody you must accept that person for who he is blah blah blah but what if he remains childish for the rest of his life? as in in relationship.. should he change? 

can you stand your partner if he is fucking serious and mature when he is not with you and you like that side of him but when youre together he is that shallow simple whatever guy thats jovial and fun..

how mature do you want your man to be?

in which or what sense does he need to be mature at/in a relationship?

i had sex with my ...... before

I HAD SEX WITH MY..... BEFORE

had this poll thingy last month and wow..

most of you had sex with your best friend before!?

wow.. like one third leh..

its so incest to do it with your best friend cos its like doing it with your brother.. yes some of you may develop feelings over the years and if it turns out good then ok la.. but.. i really cannot tahan lor.. my best friend and i are so close to the extent like brothers where there wont be sexual intentions between us lor.. 

colleagues stand at number 2 with 28 percent.. you guys hook up in the office, have sex then quit the job and move on is it? as in if tak jadi? hahahaha...

then comes friend's boyfriend and bf's best friend..

if i was a slut i would totally do it too lor, if the third party is f-king hot la.. but so far i belum la! hahahaah... wah.. friend's bf zong dak liu one, your friend found out then gone case la both of you!! boyfriend's best friend also same thingy! oh my gucci! this is so awesome to discover! hahhaa...

i love you guys! there is another poll out sudah! just click yes or no! by the top right! go click it alright?!! hahaha... 

p.s. poll result might not be true and it does not represent the gay population in malaysia, terima kasih

will you lie?

what will you do if your boyfriend ask you to compare him and his best friend

baby, you think who is hotter arr?

baby, who is more handsome arr?

baby, is he sexy? 6 pecs wor... i dont have...

baby this baby that...

what will you say?

will you lie to your boyfriend just to make him feel happy because there is no doubt that his best friend is 123456.78 times hotter than your bf?

or will you indirectly ignore that question and say something like i chose you wert... will that be enough to stop him from pestering you? will he accept it? hahahaha...

what if he ask you again? how can you reassure him that you love him only? what can you say?

till what extent will you find it annoying and think that this guy has such low esteem and its time for you to move on to the next relationship? or maybe move to his best friend instead?

ps: this has nothing to do with bubu.. i muacks him a lot.. :)

drag me to hell..

parked at a slope two nights ago.. cos im driving my manual hero (wira) so i put it on first gear cos i takut the car roll down the slope!

the next morning.. without realizing(the first gear thing) i went and start the car thought of warming it up..

the car jerked and start rolling down hill..

one of my leg is out the car..

it happened all so fast and there was another car 5 6 meters infronna me..

it rolled and the first thing that came to my mind was to stop the car.. my leg was far from the break so i use my other leg on the outside to try breaking the car, how pandai..

the car eventually knock the divider by the road side and my leg was caught in between the car's skirting and the divider..

i cant really feel my leg then..

i forced my leg out of that gap and voila.. its like rotten shit..

i thought i lost my leg..

luckily its still there..

i remember seeing my car keys flew out as in jerks..

and guess what?, the keys are underneath the car's tyre.. 

thats just great..

lesson learnt: drive auto car in the future..  

dragged...

this is my leg...

reach school ni i ask my friend to park at the orang cacat area, laugh his ass off..

today got exam lagi.. that exam need to jalan banyak wtf..

i was in the lab pai ha pai ha...

like orang cacat but not cacat, cedera nia.. so cacat + cedera = cacare? ooo awesome new word!!

i reach home now bengkak like fish ball..

tak tahan...

those anti inflammatory not working also geh...

very pain arr... 

plasma oozing out...

fuck my leg...

everytime i think off what happen i will jerk a lil..

its so painful i dowana think..

luckily my leg still attached! haha.. thank god! :) 

whats the longest gay relationship you heard of?

i have a friend that has been attached for 5 years now..

but he say that the love for his bf is fading by day..

even lil small talks leads to an argument..

they dont say i love you to each other for a couple of years already..

and they have been living together for 4 years,,

i mean..

what could have happen that result in this kinda situation?

they are both compatible..

its just so sad to hear about it..

why stay on together when you stay on just because you promise each other that you wont leave them..

if you love that someone.. let them go..

if they leave and never come back, they are not destined to be with you...

usually if the feeling is there, within hours or days the withdrawal symptoms will arise and he will come running back to you...

whats the longest relationship you guys heard of before? 

as in in terms of duration.. 

5 years? 

10 years? 

20 years?

the year thing is alil hyperbola cos usually if not compatible surely tak sampai 10 years one. hahahahaha...

bones and skin..

was reading whizkid's kfc entry and it sparked this post :)

bubu and i love kfc..

we love kfc to the freaking maximum!!

i can finish a whole bottle of thai chili sauce with 3 piece of chicken! hehe.. power leh..

anyway thats not the main point!

the reason why both of us love kfc is because i love cartilages and he loves the skin...

he swallows the skins like MPSJ and will never get fat and i will pop all the cartilages off the bones like pop corn.. haha

if you witness this scene, its like barter system :)

do you have any weird eating habits? haha..

silence...

last night after wee wee-ing at a friends place something happened..

bubu looked at me.. and i look back..

you know those bitchy eyes with meaning?

i read it as: you arr...*angry*

so as we head off from the rumah to my car i said something but he dint reply and entered the car so i thought he was angry..

so to let him cool off i just shut the hell up...

the whole journey from Sunway to Kota Damansara the car was in total silence..

i tak tahan so i on the radio and sing.. as usual..

seriously the whole 20 mins journey there was no conversation at all..

when i finally reach his condo..

night..

bye..

and thats it...

at first he told me to sleep over cos it was super ultra late already but i guess he doesnt want it cos he was still angry? so i just left la.. it was nearing 4am..

after reaching home.. was really tired then he say he wanna sleep thru sms.. so i said good night too thru sms..

i thought our ritual of talking to each other before sleep was not gonna happen last night but he called.. after 5 10 mins.. i was about to shut eye liao...

.....

....

were you angry?

.... you say la...

what happen?

... you tell me la...

i have no idea.. you tell me...

.. no.. you think!!

were you angry?

no.. were you?

no.. i thought you were angry so i dint talk to you thought of letting you cool off..

i was waiting for you to talk to me.. i thought you were angry too..

i thought you will get mad so i dint say a word.. you know you la.. want to have a say in everything so i waited..

what the.. youre the top ma.. you should initiate the talk mar...

how would i know.. i dowana get into an arguement ma...

so in the end it was all a misunderstanding shitty niama thing.. hahaha... everyone asking how are we and everything this morning..

bubu, you got lots of supporters hor!! eeee

THE ONE...

how do you know whether he's THE ONE?

because he seems perfect to you at first sight?

because he is super handsome?

because he has a big talent downstairs?

because he is filthy rich?

because he has the nicest body in town?

because he is the most talked about in the community now?

if we end up together with THE ONE, is he really the ONE for us?

what if we broke up with THE ONE, does that mean that we have yet to found THE ONE?

if you are with THE ONE, have you thought about are you his THE ONE?

after getting together, you realize he farts in the blanket and he snores like a pig or he digs his nose in public, will the THE ONE status be removed?

is there THE ONE out there for you?

Mr. Rapunzel...

i have a friend..

he is like rapunzel..

unlike rapunzel, he has a family bringing him up whereas rapunzel was brought up by this evil witch which kidnap her since young to use her magic hair to retain her youth..

but his mum was not much different than the witch where she tries to have her son all to herself..

she doesnt want him to go into a relationship with a girl but lil did she know he is gay..

he is the only son in the family so i think that the family has got no hope in continuing the blood line.. i wonder if his sister is lesbian? hahahah...

he is 25 this year..

just started a relationship with a boy, mum dint specify that he cant date guys..

the thing is he is filial to his mum, which is a good thing but his mum is too demanding and controlling..

for example after a long day of work from 9 to 6, he reaches home, she will ask him to fetch her around or to run errands and stuff..

he has got only one car.. and he doenst go to work with it.. poor boy had to take public transport..

he wont have time for his bf...

in the event if he has time to meet his bf, if his mum suddenly calls, he will have to go home immediately.. it happened before countless times.. when he was with the bf at the bf's house, the mum called for dinner but in fact she said she will have dinner herself at first, he had to abandon his poor bf to go dinner with his mum...

i pity the Mr Rapunzel.. and the bf...

this all must stop.. 

but i think he will have to step up.. voice up.. like rapunzel, in the end, if not.. jeng jeng jeng.. he wont be able to live a normal life.. and the bf will suffer..

i love my mum but if my mum was to that extent, she doesnt love me as much i guess..

3 reasons why i dont shh shh at the urinal...

NUMBER 1: Cos got peeping TOM(why they call tom arr? nothing else to call arr?!

Look left, look right.. very nice to see meh? hihi.. but ok la.. if big i also dont mind geh but really damn annoying lor.. wanna pee also sometimes cannot cos got feeling like someone is watching you like that... sometimes is the cleaner auntie.. eeeeee....

NUMBER 2: Cannot WASH!

i need to wash the kukubird cos must maintain nice smell so bubu can BJ anytime.. kihihi... bubu also same one.. hihi... instant access!! :)

NUMBER 3: SPLASH EVERYWHERE!

tall people like us very difficult one.. so tall hor then no matter how pandai we shoot hor surely deflected out back kena either the shoes or the pants near the knee there one.. kena once before so i dont dare liao.. so memalukan..

you pee at the urinal or in the cubicle ne?

how far will you go for a friend?

this scene there are A B and C

A is homophobic, B and C are gays

A is very very very super close to B 

but A doesnt know that B is gay 

Recently came a new guy C to the class 

A suspects that he is gay and is kinda mean to him insulting him and everything

B is stuck now

B really wants to help C out but A is his best friend

Dillema-fied! 

Should he help C? If outing himself would help C, will he do it? what if outing himself to help C but in the end both of them gets despised? 

if youre B, what would you do?


*this post is dedicated to someone, if you perasan, please do something about it.. if youre gay, going against another gay guy is like going against your own brother.. please use your brains before doing something! if youre not gay, then fuck off!*

the harder to get, the more valuable it is? CONT

i asked around for some views about the topic and there is this one that caught me..

When u see the guy presumably of your type being attached to someone who u think is not physically as compatible as u think u are, this kind of sour-grape mixed feeling arises. it generates room for imagination and seductive effort...

i mean, everyone definitely experienced this before dont they..


do you?


you might think that he is better off with you than his current bf la..


why cant he just dump him and be with you la? kan?


or why not you just go there and show off a lil here and there try to seduce him over la.. hehe..


i bet a few of you did that before huh?


i mean i definitely thought of that before..


why is that guy's bf so clingy one? dint give him space to breathe.. if its me i will give him more freedom...


or..


why is that guy's bf so short one.. so not compatible.. hm... wah if we were together surely damn awesome lor.. he so tall.. i also so tall.. damn ngam...


or..


wah.. that guy's body fucking hot man.. but the bf... hm... i should be the bf la...


dont you think its fucking true?


have you done it before jek? 

the harder to get, the more valuable it is?

why when its hard to get something, we will tend to get it no matter what it takes geh?

true or not?

be it diamonds, limited edition stuffs, hot guys etc...

but if we get it easily, will we truly appreciate it?

what if we get it after long battling and waiting etc.. will we still value it? will we value it even more?

there is always things that are new everyday and is sometimes hard to get your hands on..

so what after that? we get the ungettable stuff then we put it aside and search for new ungettable stuffs instead?

im talking bout guys here..

whats are the type of guys thats hardest to get?

taken ones of course.. hahahaha...

if the taken ones are easily obtained then they are no good anyway...

i have a friend who always end up being the third party unknowingly.. its not that he chose to... some attached guys are also still slutty trying to test other fishes in the curvy sea..

they wanna have a bf because they know that if anything happens they still can fall back to their bf, thats if the bf is stupid enough the accept them back la..

despite that they still wanna go out and search for fun, thats like so the tak tau menghargai kinda shit right? unless youre in an open relationship la which i tak recognized langsung in my peraturan and undang undang hukum kanun selat.

my topic deviate jor... ish.. 

whatever la..

how do we really get satisfied wor?

am i fatherly?

i was in mid valley today just lepaking with the sly fox and the wise calvin, saw pets wonderland mai just masuks sajela kan...

that place stinks like shit! literally got shit there la i mean...

walk walk walk we sampai the aquarium part...

then this happen..

aiyor...

she dint realize lor the girl...

she hugged for a whole solid 10 secs and i stun for that long trying not to move but just smile...

then the mum came laughing and apologized :) kihihi....

so cute la the girl..

i wanna be a dad in the future too :)

my services..

tuls, can i ask you for a favour?

can!!!

just a click will do!! nak pinjam gaydar you!!

ORH! ok...

this friend of mine ___insert slutty name___ is trying to hit on a friend of mine but im not sure if he is gay or not.. 

*after 5 minutes*

no mutual gay friends at all.. but hor.. he has lots of friends that have mutual gay friends with me wor... so the chances are that he might be one of us too.. just that my connection is not that powder yet!!

i dont usually do this but its really a good tool la i think.. i dont have a wide extent of gaywork (gay network).. but i have a few friends who are socially damn out who have like 5000 gay friends in one of their accounts so i can use them as reference or markers as well.. hehe...

for example a guy who has like maybe 1 or 2 gay mutual friends, it doensnt make him any gay at all.. but if its more than 4 then can suspect liao!! if its like 10 then hehe... confirm lor...

sometimes when we dont have any mutual friends at all also doesnt mean that he is not gay... just that my gaywork not power enough.. hahaha.. but i will tend to go through his friend's list to counter check.. and this only applies to the peninsula society.. hahah...

after a day... his bf message me..

tuls aa... can i ask for a favour arr....?


*drop dead*

congested..

bacteria infection..


my airways were all obstructed this morning when i woke up..


saw greenish yellowish sputum after blowing it off..


confirm sei bacteria infection liao..


bukak jer facebook..


first thing that pops out from my profile was this...


i wish i was there to massage your head ache away
i wish i was there to stay up all night checking your temperature
i wish i was there to cuddle you to sleep
i wish i was there to hold your medicine and make sure you are taking them on time
i wish i was there with a wet cloth in my hand to pat your fore head
i wish i was there to give you gentle peck of kisses

get well baby... =)


so sweet dao...


but yea.. my nose is like broken tap.. keeps dripping fluid.. damn annoying..


last post kinda emo.. no more emoness after this i hope..

landslide...

i took my love and i took it down
climbed a mountain and i turned around
and i saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
well the landslide brought me down..

oh mirror in the sky, what is love?
can the child within my heart rise above
can i sail through the changes ocean tide
can i handle the seasons of my life..

well, ive been afraid of changing
cos i built my life around you
but time makes you bolder,
children get older
and im getting older too

dead dad
a promise is a promise
after anticipating for 2 years and 10 years of suffering
landslide or not im truly bittered..
im really at my most vulnerable state now i guess..

bubu.. :,(

allergic to mangoes?

bubu's besties, him and i were walking in 1U towards topman from the escalator then there is this juice stall by the side giving out samples and stuffs..

so cos i dont really like juices (mainly cos i hate fruits) thats why i was like trying to avoid that guy that was giving out samples but tak dapat avoid so this happens..

sir would you like to try our new mango juice?

oh no.. im allergic... thank you...

*silence*

*everyone continue walking*

*bubu turned around and look at me* did you just say that youre allergic to mango?

*EVERYONE BURST OUT LAUGHING*

his bestie: i was tahaning not to laugh just now.. haahahahahahahaha

where the fuck did that came? hahahahaha...  i dont really know also actually.. im definitely not allergic but it just came out my mouth then.. hahah.. 

have you guys said anything stupid before? or acted anyway strange or funny before?

are gay blogs influential?

i started a discussion with a few plu friends over facebook and it goes like this...

do you think the emergence of slutty plu blogs will make newly self discovered gays/existing gays to be slutty as well? as in those who reads..

some say it set a bad example...

some say as long as it delivers the right message okay lah.. not so good when we try and justify being openly slutty..

some say Information is everywhere. New readings on latest trends and promotional items crop up every second. People won't easily embrace or try it out unless it relates to them at some level (perception, emotion, tolerance etc). Another factor would be ease of execution without being troublesome

someone told me before that because of reading my blog, they are more brave to slut around.. at first i was fucking happy but now to think of it.. hahah.. oh well.. its still up to the person itself to decide kan..

had a short conversation with bubu saying that blog is a very important tool.. he touched on what if a young gay reader chance upon my blog and read those sexiting stories, wouldnt he eager to try etc.. i mean i remember my first time reading calvin strictlygay's blog 6 7 years back entah brapa lama.. and then there were still sextories published but now no more.. i was somehow addicted to read them.. but i dont think that it changed/influenced me anyhow into becoming a slut..

there are so many depending factors involved in influencing the choice of other minds eg, maturity, acceptance, moral/religious values etc.. but that doesnt mean that it wont succeed.. haha..

i dowan the blog to get all the wrong attention..

being a slut is fun, but its not good, people will get hurt in the end... as in.. for most cases.. anyhow.. play safe you rainbows out there!! youre rainbow because youre worth it! youre beautiful because youre rainbow! :) haha.. its damn random i know.. hahahaha...

❤tuls