Xmas in London :)

Jason and Vincent was there when i reach King Cross station, landing my foot on platform 9, the same place where Harry Potter enter the world of magic(couldnt find that wall though, no 3/4 for me).. haha.. after that we were joined by a cute silent anonymous reader of our blogs(yummy) and off to our hotel to throw all our bagasi.. we then went for our dinner at a nearby Chinese Restaurant(i was kinda celebrating the chinese winter festival where back in la-land we eat boiled nut+sugar wrapped in flour in ginger soup, where my grandma will make for us in Johor)..

the next day we roamed the streets of england 4 of us berganding bahu menge-camwhore macam every other tourist in the area.. haha.. was so exhausted we went and tried ice cream that cost rm20.. lol.. everything is expensive here..

it was hazelnut and toffee white chocolate a scoop each!! its super duper yummy!! :)

after that it was more and more of cam whoring...

saw the malaysian embassy along the way..

it was right at the entrance before entering the boulevard towards buckhingham pa-laise(thats how one of us pronounce palace :) guess who?!?!)..

then the big ben...

the eye..

and then someone acidentally PDA-ed in the land of gay-acceptable land.. feel like slapping them *joking*.. some more do it in front of me.. never die before(kantonese)...

moving on to more interesting stuffs..

BOXING DAY!!!!

two deaths in the UK.. how interesting..

i bought a pair of jeans that i was eyeing for quite some time now.. erm.. clothes and stuffs.. not much..

then later we went for afternoon(cos the sun sets very early it felt like supper) tea!! the scones and stuffs were delicious and filling!!



we were then later joined by mark and some bi-blogger(dont be angry ok i still love you, saje kacau nia.. hihi).. and our party is complete! the 6 of us then head off to some winter wonderland in hyde park.. not so much of a white xmas la no snow.. lol

being the balless me i did not went up the ride and just stood down there and ambik gambar and jaga beg.. they went up and scream their lungs out! haha...

later that night we went to the gay street to have an eye opener..

we went in and chilled and drink... lol.. ok la.. sekali lagi i menge-breach my own principle of not to drink.. bencis.. the fourth time after 4 months.. haha.. unavoidable much.. the crowd started to build up and the next thing we know we got like free passes to the HEAVEN - the biggest baddest gay club thingy in London? was it.. i rono.. my first time.. and so we went there and boomz!! it was heaven!!  it was like 50 times bigger than marketplace(ok im exxagerating) but it was huge and the people are like omg!! so banyak and topless and naked... arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... hahahahaha.... basically everyone was high la...

the line to enter was as thick as one car width and the length of half a football field.. it was crazy... but this shot was taken when we were exiting.. haha.. so we are kinda like lucky!! :)

then the next day we were off to madam tussauds to have sex with the lookalike figures... :) and after dinner we went back to have some gay pillow talk and also all those drinking games wtf.. and then the gift exchange thing! hehe..  guess what i dapat!?!?

a nice fitting pair of colourful boxers and socks by Ted Baker! wohooooo!! :) i went home the next day with a heavy head.. haha...

still having withdrawal symptoms.. the fun, the experience, the company was too good.. and the silent reader who joined us is just tooo cute to handle :)

wanna wish a late Merry Xmas to all of you and hopefully New Year will be a blast!! :)

XOXO

p.s. Jason and VINCENT, thanks for organizing and planning this trip, it couldnt been better :)  SL, mark, superdry, ninja, see you guys some time next year! :)

merry xmas!!

this is like some UKMas blogger-related christmas getaway kinda thing..

just got down king cross station this afternoon, felt kinda harry potterish.. :) i got down from platform 9 wtf...haha..

although its not a white xmas but its quite a good start for me.. now downloading some ghost movie to watch with the boys!!

will be in london for quite a few days..

see you guys when im home..!!

till then, have a very merry xmas!!

xoxo from London
tuls

tik tok tik tok salji dah turun.... lol

haha.. the snow fall for the first time in fronna me marks the start of term break and winter vacation!!

i was so so so excited cos my kawan called me up around 9 to tell me it was snowing.. i was so blur but i still manage to jump up and look out.. wah... damn nice...

it somehow gave me hope... dono la but tibe tibe i feel very surreal... like wah... snow leh...

i then quickly scream from my room to wake all my kawan up... lol

we ran out of house to feel snow in our face...

all the ang mohs i think surely think we all siao kia one... lol

ahhhhhhhhhhh...

so nice..

when it got heavier, one friend and i try to snowball each other..

wah seh the salji was so solid it hurts to the max wtf....

haha... it was fun la...

this was the after fight effect lol...

im waiting for my first ever white xmas..

it will be in the heart of London with a few close friends.. :)

*tear*...

haha.. tibe tibe so emotional...

cant wait for it!! wohoooooooooooooo!!

dear blog, will abandon upi kejap cos nak tour around UK skit... :)

PS: happy birthday Jasonisahe, sorry for not knowing your birthday, hm... i damn terasa reading the post in vincent's blog... lol...as if we are damn close like that.. i know.. i damn perasan.. hahahaa.. anyway see you soon ok!!! have fun in Europe!!! :) wait.. or are you back already!??!??! lollll

the chef wants to retire....

serious shit its so cold the motivation to cook decreased by 80%..

firstly the water is like 5 degrees or something..

the kitchen is the only part that is no carpeted so the coldness is amplified there..

there are so many piping at the back of the basin and shit and some of them got holes for the cold wind outside to come in...

its just so arghhhhhhhhhh...

my vege inside the fridge dono can survive or not..

dint cook them for so long liao i think later they die off lembik then have to throw...

im surviving on bread with peanut butter chocolate orange marmalade spread...

things that i hate most is all i have now that is convenient to eat...

oh well..

the snow is not here yet but the wind is 50kph...

fuck... when are you coming jek?!?!!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

awaiting salji to turun...

this is a pic from my window...

 

hopefully it will snow tonight la.. everywhere else in the UK snow liao except my place... so tak tahan already la...

the next time i ambil the same spot with snow!! kihihihi...

cb constant 1 2 degrees this week liao my cb freeze liao pee also cannot come out...

out myself to make another happy...

i have got this friend of 2 years now in the 3rd year of our friendship, we werent close at first but second year became closer and closer and now could say that she is one of the closest to me here in the UK owing to the fact that she lives near my place and that she is english speaking.. lol.. not that im not close to the chinese speaking chinese but just they tend to associate that way...

anyhow she got into a bad breakup, the ex was bad mouthing her and stuffs and she tells me how sad she is and how she misses her ex.. 

but the ex is really too much la.. although he is also my friend... she depress for a whole 2 months already and instead of once bitten twice shy thing, she kena bit twice in a year and by the same type of lelaki... poor thing..

detour abit...

to her im very mysterious in a way.. its like whenever i go out dating with bubu and stuffs in KL for lunch break during term time she will always wonder who i go out to and stuffs..  if lets say i wanna go out on a date with some dude takkan i wanna go tell her meh.. and its always when im busy doing stuffs she will then ajak me out so coincidentally.. and i will always reject her... lol.. who ask her to stay the nearest to me in KL.. cb... 

anyway...

so one night when i was walking her back, she being depress and down and all i started to tell her about me..

she couldnt believe it and kept doubting every word i say.. and when we reach her doorstep she invited me in and we talked in her room for hours.. hahahaha...

30 minutes after i first told her then only she starts to accept.. hahahaha... but it was nice to see her so much better.. like totally a changed person and we talked about my bubu and talk about her ex ex bf.. talk about how my gaydar works, talk about dicks and impotency.. hahaha...

and in the end she said to me with a smile: AS LONG AS YOURE HAPPY...

so she is the second person i outed myself to in UNI, lol.. i dont think i wanna keep doing this but i got a feeling everyone will know soon.. hm... not because of her.. haha.. whatever la...

so now at least i got 2 person to talk about guys when im bored as long as i dont touch their potential targets ... lol!

its another form of relief for me.. and now i can talk about bubu to her too.  :)

my old friend...

we see each other everyday..

sometimes a couple of mins.. sometimes its quite long but never more than an hour..

when i miss him i visit him a few times an hour..

sometimes i moan cos of the intensity of pain is so excrutiating..

sometimes i just sit back and relax and enjoy his company..

i always do bad things to him...

sometimes i curse him..

sometimes i shit at his face...

sometimes i force him to drink my piss..

but recently after eating some spicy nasi lemak, i miss him even more...

i went and look for him 4 times in the middle of the night...

it was so so so painful my asshole literally exploded at his face yet he just take it like a man...

thats my old friend, the toilet..

yesterday night diarrhea gao gao...

like to the max...

had my first nasi lemak after 3 months here.. haha..

my mina buat for me so spicy it was explosive but i took it down like a man and sweat a river out of me...

oh well its a nice one but im not gonna torture myself anymore after this... lol

make me fall please...

its gonna snow soon liao.. two days in a row the path i walk to school membeku-s already and its so slippery i can ski!! lol

i cant wait! hahahaha...

i feel so jakun but whatever la! wohooooooooo!! disney on ice my ass! i wanna try to jatuh and see how one day! kihihihi...

siao me..

all this kecik kecik things happen amuse me so much like so kefunny-ian to think of it... like im so childish like that!! lol...

i want snow snow snow! lalalalala...

ok la.. my mood better jor entah kenapa...

tonight im gonna cook for 8 orang! im making 2 pots of different curry! haha.. cant wait!!

why muslim dont eat pork = why hindus dont eat beef...

this was what i wrote 2 days ago..

"what if youre muslim and youre stuck in antartica or some shit and the only source of drink is alcohol...??"

and a fellow blogger replied with..

"In islamic law it is permissible to eat those haram food if situation on the above happens.
study other religion properly before you made any statements or comments."

firstly i wanna make it clear that im not a religious person at all..

secondly i respect all religions equally..

thirdly, how do you know that i did not study other people's religion properly before making my statement?

anyway..


im not trying to be a bitch here.. i asked a few religious friends about it before and the main thing they say to me is that pig is regarded as "unclean".. they eat all kinds of shit and stuffs..

thats the general answer la..

in my opinion, i think that what every religion bans or forbid its followers or disciples from eating and doing is to test their own willpower and mostly a sense of respect.

we humans can do whatever we want, wherever we want but there is a certain limit for everything..

the japanese and chinese eat babi all their lives and yet they still have one of the highest lifetime expectancy in the world..

i saw my friends showing me books of how "dirty" the babi-s are with all kinds of scientific bacterias and diseases caused, but to me in general, all animals are the same la ...

in my opinion, its like God wants to put a test in every religion to test you how strong your faith is.. you can have the world, but I only forbid you to eat one thing, in islam is pork, in hinduism is beef(sense of respect, cow is regarded as sacred)etc.. if that also you cant do, means your willpower is low.. its not like eating any of those will kill you.. its just a test.. if you fail the test means youre a bad person? you will go to hell? no.. youre just not strong in your own faith thats all..

its the same as some people turning into vegetarians, they hate animal cruelty slaughtering etc and chose a path to eat only non animal food.. some even eggs pun tak makan, thats a sense of respect to the animals? or they just hate cruelty??..

to me its the same general application..

its not like drinking alcohol can kill you, alcohol its hazardous if consume more than the limit, and you might do stuffs you shouldnt, maybe thats the whole main point muslims are forbidden to drink, they dowan you to act stupidly just in case you get drunk...

its like adam and eve with that stupid apple or was it an apple? lol... anyway.. god gave him everything yet he chose that one thing that god forbids him to eat.. same reason la..

religions are there to guide you to be good.. i bet all religions are the same but just in different ways.. but sometimes "people" in the religion that are bad ass and that makes them stray away.. its not like that religion is bad or kinda thing..

so yea...

thats just my opinion..

thanks everybody thanks...

xoxo
the not so religious TULS...
ps. i dont believe in heaven and hell, but im not sure whats after life either! lol...

eat it you bitch... dont tahan! lol

its easier said than done...

whenever i see him appear online, my whole body will kinda vibrate, tingling sensation..

slowly my tears will run down my cheek..

haha..

its been weeks already..

its not easy for me, its not easy for the both of us..

i was the strong one back then..

but when im here, it feels like the roles have been reversed..

im such a baby now..

when i see him online i dont even dare to message him sometimes..

cos i know i couldnt take it..

its so much easier consoling people, comforting other people..

but when it comes to your ownself...

you will never apply things you tell others to do..

thanks for those who texted, those who emailed, those who whatsapp etc.. you know who you are.. really appreciate your thoughts and regards.. im fine and i will be fine..

....i just need time...

its easier said than done...

casino halal...

is there such word arr? religist? or religionist? lol.. wait.. i sudah lupa the term for it.. lol.. whatever la..

the casino at my area damn powerful, they gave a 10 pounds worth of chips to you for the new comers! :) hehe..

so i went in and played black jack.. the rule is that you have to use the 10 pounds one shot and so i did and i lost 17 - 20. oh well.. gambling is not my thing anyway...

the main reason we, my housemate and i went there was for the dessert..

like genting we have free flow of any drinks we want but we paid for the desserts la..

cannot compare with the tanah melayu desserts la, here everywhere also nice one cos maybe its fresh and stuff kinda shit or maybe its just psychoing me la that the desserts here are nicer since i paid extra for it as compared to msia..

anyway i saw some malay counterparts here in the casino as well.. hahahaha...

im not trying to condemn what shit la but as long as you know what youre doing and cause no harm i dont think gambling is such a taboo that you cant even enter that area just because youre muslim...

and so as drinking, or eating babi.. what if youre muslim and youre stuck in antartica or some shit and the only source of drink is alcohol...?? and what if youre in a land of babi with no other poultry..?!?!

anyway... although i dono who are they but they smiled at us and we smiled back cos we saw each others identical passport cover! lol....

the cafe is kinda conducive to do discussion so we started gossiping and stuffs then we took out our assignments and started doing omgosh it was so hillarious.. because the water was free flowing we just stayed there for hours..

i think the casino will be the next best place to chill out after this..

fully utilizing the resources!! :)

winter is expecting...

i was talking to a new friend yesterday...

the wind damn big right this week..

yup, its like that one la.. seasons changing like that one..

mm.. i think so too..

ya wat, when you first reach here also damn big wind right?

mm.. true...

but this year winter is late liao.. last year, this time snow liao...

wah... winter pregnant ba.. thats why late liao...

=.=

cant wait for snow lor.. i mean i want the fun part of snow la.. the dirty wetty part please dont kacau me thanks..

when your ex is not exactly your ex...

what if your ex is not your ex? or maybe at least it doesnt feel that way yet...

my parents doesnt know him..

and i never had a toy in my life.. at least not in my memory..

so in conclusion this statement is not applicable.. in my case...

haha..



 ....


have you ever felt that way..

its normal right to feel this way?

not like bubu is with anyone else now.. just the fact that he might be going to some clubs or maybe to the gym or maybe to some random party and he might be meeting who the hell i dont know at all just sometimes... like... erm.. its just irritates me...

well its not my right to do so.. i mean.. he is still my bubu but just not THAT bubu so much anymore..

oh well..

i declare november as a bad month for me..

December will be better i hope..

for now just concentrate on my studies.. thats the main reason why im here right...

grrrrr... hahaha... i think i bipolar la.. suddenly happy suddenly emo..

i feel like eating nasi kandar...

honey chicken...

and sashimi...

haha.. im such a mess...

sometimes its so freaky to find songs that you used to sing but never knew it would perfectly describe what its happening right now...

...

imybb..

blow me away...

autumn is changing to winter liao...

when i first came here it was summer turning autumn and the wind was so kepowerfulan! now that the season is changing again, so is the wind..

the wind strength of the wind macam has a linear relationship with the change of season...

although its 12 degrees(which is pretty hot for me now, kononnye sudah convert ang mo), the wind can blow sampai my tangan sakit cos sejuks... and my face macam kena cold facial... siao.. and not forgetting the poor umbrella from poundworld which died yesterday, it got striped off its bones... poor thing.. i think i wanna go bury it or something...

everyone is getting sick but tuls is tahaning.. lol.. im the source of sickness wert... *rolleyes*

i got this 2000 words report due wednesday.. gone la me.. 2 weeks after that another one... haha.. luckily not as teruk as medical students.. 2000word reports weekly.. siao kia nothing else better to do arr...

im in love with the scottish all butter shortbread now.. haha.. bought like 5pkts of 4 each 250g.. so awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cant wait for my winter hols... fai tit cum la...

question..

what if youre a dead bottom, like super bottom in terms of the role in bed and you somehow kinda like this virgin and he likes you as well..

he is inexperience and has no knowledge of top or bottom at all..

what will you do?

will you still go on date him out, get along and hoping that he will be a top..

or will you just stay as friends.. avoiding the relationship issue...

yes you might say, when you love someone then sex or no sex doesnt matter yada yada. NO. Sex is important.. lol.. takkan wanna just dildo each other every night meh.. i mean can also la but.. ... ... hm...

it boils down to how much you think about sex and the importance of it?

sluts will just test that poor virgin and if ok then continue if not then sorry byebye.. oh well.. i was a victim myself... .... .... whatever...

so yea.. what will you do?

what the fuck is a power bottom...

so i was asked one day by entah siapa: ARE YOU A POWER BOTTOM?

ok the first thing that came to mind was... am i a very powerful bottom? lol

serious shit is that what he meant? power in what sense?

what does the power mean leh?

so i was so curious to know i tanya kawan but macam all the answers indefinite so i GOOGLED!! so pandai!! guess what! there are like a few definitions wtf by that urban dictionary and each of the definitions are ranked! like wtf!!! :)

1. A gay boy who takes control when he's getting fucked in the ass : 54 likes, 379 dislikes
- right...

2. A man who generates all the power by doing most of the work. Size and strength has to do with how much power is produced, but speed is everything. It informs the top how much pressure he's supposed to apply. Speed is the name of the game. Power bottoms are usually bears : 242 likes 237 dislikes

- im not a bear lor... hahahahah... speed is everything.. hm... too fast the brain cannot take the stimulus.. omgoshhhhhhhhhhh... pleasure... fuck i damn deprived of sex la!!!!!!!!!!

3. Gay Male Term. Dominant Bottom. While a bottom is usually submissive to his partner, a power bottom enjoys maintaining control over the top and/or the penetration, the normally dominant role in gay male sex. Power bottoms supposedly have skilled tongues. (They give the best blow jobs fellatio and rim jobs analingus) : 1889 likes, 225 dislikes

- haha... ok la if its this definition then im not a power bottom lor..

i was thinking in a different context kinda thing like what if the power means real power like he is a successful more career driven kinda bottom, know what he wants out of life etc.. but nah.. in the end macam sex has more to do in POWER BOTTOM kan?.... hahaha...

so what does it mean to you? and are you one?!

bloody mouth..

i woke up to find my pillow case stained in red..

went to the mirror only to see my lips are all bloodified.. all dry...

apparently my lips cracked so teruk...

eeeeeeeeeeeeee...

never in my life i feel this geli and irritated...

no kissing after this.. lol.. not like i got anyone to anyway.. haha..

now my lips are so oily cos of the heavily spread of vaseline...

glossy but oily always feel like wiping this shit of cos not used to it..

oh well.. have to get used to it la i think...

i think i watch too much vampire diaries liao...

i dont mind lor having a tongue battle with any of one the werewolves or the vampires.. hehe..

i dont mind him stripping me off to the bone and fuck me upside down.. lol

shit im so deprived of sex....

and i wank too much...

hm....

focus focus...

exposed 2.0?

its not like i was hiding my identity from that someone or what but its just not very appropriate to tell your gay prefect junior in school that you are gay as well just because he is too and so that was stalled till forever.. i mean even though if he really discover that i am along the way then whatever la i dont mind.. haha..

the main reason why i dint wanna tell him was that cos he was going after my bf then at the particular time and my bf and i were so secretive cos he being a muslim and all was kinda overwhelming to let anyone know so basically no one from the school knows that we are together then..

more than one gay fella from our school was after him but he chose me not because im better or anything, its mainly because i made a move before anybody else did kinda thing...?

of course in the process i did say a few bad things about my rival contestants then to him to make him dislike them even more but what i told was only the truth but it was only meant for them to know but not him but i told him as well..

so apparently everyone has been gossiping bout my ex and my rivals all because they wanna cover themselves up they go kutuk and say bad things about my ex being gay and all spreading rumour and of course being an important figure i knew about all those cos i was present at that moment too and so then told my ex everything making him hating them for what they said about him and then secure my place in his heart.. hahaha..

to think back.. its so... omgosh i cant even believe that i did that.. i mean.. it seems normal to me then and even now typing it out i dont feel anything but when i slowly read back.. hahahaha.. its so kejahatan.. lol..

maybe i just dowana lose him kinda thing? hm...

but anyway... today as i was talking to bubu, guess what..??? one of my rivals has became his new found friend and then the rest was history.. hahahaha.. yup.. im terbongkar.. i mean.. not that i need to hide or something, i know that he knows already but.. hahahaha.. im just.. i dono... lol... ...... cannot explain...

anyway if youre reading this now.. im sorry of what happened before... he wanted me to convert into his religion just for us to continue in the relationship after 2.5years being together... in the end he went religious.. so i dont think it will end up good for you anyway if you were to be with him.. im not saying that his religion is not good.. its the act of wanting you to change and not accepting you as who you are is the thing that matters.. hm... oh well...

the gay community is just that big.. everyone knows everyone.. hahahaha...

house conflict 1...

i put the number 1 there cos i think there will be future conflicts as well..

lol..

not jinxing it..

i hope tarak..

oh well.. we are human anyway.. sure got conflicts..

so...

this case..

im living with a few blokes and bitches...

this house, our rent covers(or included) a certain amount of utilities for each of us..

the powerful bitches everyday go on the bloody heater even when the temperature is like 15...

come on... we on it during winter la... its estimated that it cost 1 pound to on the heater for an hour that radiates the whole house thru pipes and shit.....

so... if we were to on it all night long it will definitely kill the coverage of our rent...

so the awesome thing to do is whenever they on it.. and when MY room heats up i will go down and off it...

but like after 10 mins of offing it will on back lor some bitches downstairs surely go on again so sometimes its like some war going on... indirect war... not like they will freeze and can make ice on their skin to make milo ice...

one day when i go visit their room i realize all the bitches room got each one ELECTRICAL HEATERFANSHIT ... so i was like wah.......

then cannot tahan jor i ask for a house meeting..

so all the bitches and and i sat down and we discussed and came to a conclusion that...

hehe...

they will split the bill if the electricity bill overshoot the coverage limit cos i dont heat my room like a furnace all the time..

seriously i enter their room sometimes feel like sauna and they can tahan like so wtf...

i feel that its super fair and they agreed so hehe... being a bitch me i wont wanna jimat elektrisiti anymore like how i use to cos i know even if my limit breached i wont pay any extra! haha....

blek..

bitches suck on that!!!  lol

oh yea the older post i put CO23- but in actual fact carbonate is CO32-... lol.. too blonde to notice.. hahahahahah... stupid slut...

CO23-

like seriously the last time i touch carbonated drink was on the airplane flying here which was almost 3 months ago.. haha

i had like free flow of 7UP although there were red and white wine but nah... i dont fancy those..

so yesterday while burning the night my friend and i indulged in diet coke wtf 2 bottles of 3L diet coke! hahahaha..

and for the whole night we burp all the way..

like seriously even if we dont burp our tummy make sounds... and talking bout sounds the bird here mate at night cos 3am in the morning mereka macam berpesta chirp here chirp there.. siao bird..

and the worst thing is that the gas was so teruk it came out the other end too.. ahahaah..

no more carbonated drink for me liao i think... haha..

and i need to finish a 2000 words appraisal by tonight...

im gg-fied!

life..

lol..

this is not an emo post..

haha..

life is of balance..

if there is a yin, there will be yang..

if there is night, there will be day..

if there is birth, there will be death..

if there are matchups, there will be breakups..

if there are rewards, there will be obstacles..

if there is a prey, there will be a predator..

if there is are guys/gays, there will be girls/lesbos...

life is like a road, there will be smooth paths, there there will be some cornering, sometimes a few bumps, sometimes a 90 degrees turn and there will be traffic lights...

the smooth part is like our everyday life.. routinal and compulsory.. and its for most part of the road as it is for our lives..

sometimes there are some cornering, stress comes from different corners to spice up your life, makes your life more interesting, helping you and building your character along the way..

the bumps are major changes that happens to you.. whether its a death, or maybe a break up or maybe some awesome joy like you won a lottery that will give you a kick if youre in the car depends on how big the bump is.. if you handle it well, you will pass the bump smoothly and move on with the journey, but sometimes if the bump is too high, you will puncture your tyre or scratch the bottom of the car and thats when you need some time to heal before continuing on..

sometimes the road will have a sharp turn turning your life upside down for either the better of the worse.. may that be in a promotion in your career or when you go bankrupt.. some people couldnt handle the turn well and they will go off the road into an accident.. usually people think about the bad stuffs saying how can a good promotion could end up bad? if you dont take it seriously, you will have competitors that will try to make your life miserable, people might be bugging you for your money be it relatives, lovers, ex-es.. dot dot dot.. when youre famous people will blackmail you with your dark history yada yada..

sometimes when you reach a traffic light, it will be a point in life where you need to decide whether to turn left, turn right, and continue to go straight..

you might take awhile to decide, your friends that are concern are like the sign boards in fronna you, telling you whats the speed limit you should take or whether left or right is a better choice.. sometimes if you take too long to decide, people might be annoyed of you and give you honk from behind.. 

no road is perfect..

sometimes you know that the road is not perfect yet you still chose that path to go along..

there are other roads that we are not aware of and yet to try but we will never know if we never try.. it could be for better or for worse..

im just grateful of everything i have and got so far..

just being alive in a place where there isnt any war or famine going on is a blessing and thats what keeps me optimistic about it! 

haha..

but its alright to exercise my tear gland once awhile i think... lol

hows life treating you lately?!

its not cool to date your colleagues? or classmates?

well there are pros and cons in it..

PROs

1. You guys might share the same interest, same ideas as you are of around the same age group. As in thats what college and uni is all about. You study the same course and maybe have the same goals in life bla bla bla...

2. Availability. He will always be there for good, you go to classes together.. get off the same time... basically you know each others schedule and that helps time management..

3. Not awkward. Like for us gay if we were to be spotted by people together we could always use assignments and stuffs as an excuse of the cause. haha..

4. You can get to know that person in the long run before you date him as you roughly know how he acts and behave in class kinda thing.. although not very accurate at times but you just assume based on impression..



CONs

1. If it doesnt work out.. it will be super awkward.. like depends on the situation, the one who gets dumped will feel super depressed and angry and might be having trouble in attendance and stuffs..

2. It will affect your mood and it might affect your grades.. like seriously.. my SPM was screwed cos of that.. lol

3. He might know your deepest secret and like it could be a hazard if it leaks.. lol.. choose your opponent partner wisely..



And as for me dating again, well some people might support it and some might hate it and some will never return to read this blog again. Im inconsiderate?? Im hurting bubu?? Some say that im hurting him so that he could move on.. Some say that im a slut..

oh well.. it depends on how you interpret life and your purpose in life.. nothing is gonna affect me anyhow.. im not closing up to possibilities but im not really like pursuing it too.. if it comes it comes..

tuls is dating again?

okay... please curse me...







...........

done?

k thanks..


anyway..

not to say im some slut(or maybe i am) or what but im opening up for possibilities..

you might say: wah so fast arr... wah this wah that.. can so fast move on..

the answer is...

well its not easy...

and im not gonna mourn over our separation forever..

not that im heartless.. its because i have a heart(it should be brain).. i mean... after all im only human.. its bad enough to be so far away from comfort.. sometimes its really nice to have company in a land no relatives at all.. hm....

i mean i always see bubu when im dating someone else..

there always will be a comparison..

whether is the height, personality, will he love me as much etc...

well it is really not easy..

and it will also be not fair to the person you are dating if you are still in love with someone else..

you might say: why not be single and just fling around then wait till you graduate then go back to bubu..

the thing is i dont know whether will i go back or not.. there are so many other factors to consider..

how i wish rich and my life was simple and easy..

but just imagine if it is that simple and easy wont it be a lil too boring? i mean... stress in life makes life as it is.. interesting and eventful..

sex is fun and exciting but i dowana do it just for the point of unleashing my lust..

i can masturbate it off..

im still surviving kan..

i wont be getting into a relationship until im really sure that the next person i date is not a rebound guy..

hm...

at this point i still misses bubu...

dicks dangling everywhere..

like seriously..

wherever you go you can see dicks..

not like in malaysia semua pakai ketat ketat nak tengok apa pun tarak..

here everyone wear so loose and sometimes takde undies pun..

muahahahahaha....

 royalty pun tak kalah!! :)

not that it makes me gersang..

its so normal liao..

and its so hard not to stare... sometimes so besar wahhhhhhhh!! lol

and the best way to know whether your friend is gay or not.. is when a guy(hot or not) passes by he will glance first thing at his face then glance at his dick then shift back to whatever he is doing.. haha.. normal guys dont do that!!

so....

take note ok! lol

flame on...

when we came home after lecture buka jer lampu whole house tripped!

so we went and check room by room and found that one room smells like pee pee..

so i thought its some perfume shit la..

mana tau go look nearer got one plug terbakar sampai left half of the plug..

luckily house tidak terbakar..

then i told my kawans be grateful of what you have now cos you might never know bila you will mati..

lol

so drama..

then the night itself in the middle of the night say 3am lebih kurang, there were fire engines all over the place.. sirens and stuffs bunyi bising giler...

a house 2 blocks down the road caught fire...

hahahaha..

what a coincidence..

we dint get much sleep cos of the commotion.. so we lepak at the terbakar room and gossip..

after awhile gossip gossip gossip i realize something...

ironically the adapter is approved by sirim... lol

Malaysia boleh...

case study 1...

ive been observing the couples that broke up over the few months we are here in UK..

there are 2 couples that was in my batch back home and broke up when they got here and it kinda make me realize not say a pattern but like.. erm..

its like you are one person with your friends and all but when youre with your other half you are a totally different person..

one couple used to be like fighting manja manja and all in school and we thought they will last long and all but once they got here, things happen and they split up..

the guy says he wants some time for himself.. i think he just wants to experience life in UK to the fullest without any burden.. but its kinda selfish for him to just break up with his gf for it.. its not like the gf is not here with him.. = playboy la..

the girl got so depressed and was like so troubled for the past few weeks..

well i only heard stories from her point of view so i cant really judge who is wrong or who is right.. im closer to the girl but im still good friends with the guy nonetheless... hm...

but now the thing is he is going after a more girly, prettier, richer flower in the class.. she was here since first year and she is seemed to be very well maintained.. haha..

she is in the same group as me and somehow im kinda afraid for her.. as in she fits the description of vulnerable like how his ex was..

he went and tackle her after she broke up with the bf.. i mean at the time after broke the girl will definitely be vulnerable and wants attention and love and all so... its all happening again with this new girl..

she just broke up..

but i cant just go up to her and say: you better be careful with the guy you are dating now..

haha..

thats just so unethical ... lol.. i mean its not fair for the guy at all...

i think i will just remain silent la..

well he is indeed an ok friend.. not much a problem when we mix during class, labs or whatever...

but as a boyfriend.... well.. he might be ok and maybe his ex was the one at fault? but... its really hard to tell..

haha.. im just worried for this girl nia..

hopefully she will be ok ba..

what will you do if youre at my position?

im a flower...

people here are so polite...

as in the ones in the market.. all those cashier and stuffs..

whenever i go and beli something and pay they will go like..

cashier: hiya.. you ok..

me: ya u...

*smile*

*scan scan barcode*

3 pounds 42 please...

*pay*

thanks flower...

..................=.=........*smile* thank you..

seriously i look like flower meh?

the girls will usually use love and flower, then the guys will use mate.. hahah..

seriously im flower!! :)

cut me negative...

seriously it was kinda weird for autumn to reach like negative(according to my common sense) but it happened lor...

i woke up and it was so freaking cold i put on another pants and another hoodie and check the temperature..

negative 2 degrees wtf...

i had to shower cos my rambut yang hodoh is lebih hodoh if i tak washkan so i did and gosh it was cold..

my bath robe kept me warm sekejap but when im at the bathroom before taking off the bath robe i have to think whether to take it off or not cos its so cold.. hahahaha.. its kinda bodoh in a way la..

anyway...

after mandi and makan breakfast and all we(my housemates and I) all march to uni as usual..

it takes only 5 mins walk..

once we step out of our rumah everything was white..

it was so remarkable..

like.....

erm..

it wasnt snow but everything froze...

the whole field from my house to uni was frozen and its literally white...

and i stopped for awhile to jakunly stun and look but hor my hands were freezing..

i forgotten it was negative 2...

so as i was trying to put my tangan into my pocket..

just the slight rub of my coat against my tangan felt like knife cutting my skin..

it was that bad(maybe i exaggerated a lil).. like seriously sakits..

the next thing i know my bag dalam ada satu pair of gloves for future use.. lol

funny funny things happen... lol.. it might be normal to the people here but to me its still kinda new cos like im the rusa who just masuk the kampung kinda thing.. lol

the FART that last forever...

so ive been doing a lot of cooking and cos onion is cheaper than garlic like alot so i was like ok why not substitute garlic with onion then..

so most of my cooking will surely got onion..  anyway...

my room's window was never opened cos its super cold and i wont feel stuffy cos of the cooling effect and i dono why some people thinks they are suffocating..

anyway ive been farting alot cos of the onion effect and haha.... it was so stinky cos the air is not moving so the fart stays like forever like some constant ambi-not-pure controlled spray like that...

lol...

its an on going thing so whoever who wants to come and crash my place in future please be aware! lol...

ooi2009...

ooi2009...

why am i writing this post huh...

erm.. maybe cause i got no other topic to think about? lol.... 

well he first appear commenting in my blog on the 8th of Mac and it goes like this..

"erm...an interesting post .if i am to comment , i will agree with what teoh said , bcoz for the main thing that most of what he says is a fact . as much as we want to deny , the blogs do potray a negative impact on impressionable gay youngsters or newbies bcoz it glorifies unfaithfulness . I dont quite agree with Mycroft above bcoz , sucking dicks just shows that ur a slut .The same thing a person will think if a girl says she enjoys having sex with different men , or she loves giving blowjobs , she is deemed a slut.And sluts will sooner or later lead to destruction .A gene may cause u to like a guy BUT NOT TO FUCK EVERY GUY.

If we all hold accountability to what we do , the world will not have racists ,lazy people , etc.People are influenced by others no matter how you like it .A person will be racist if he/she sees his own family acting racist.A person is more lazy if he sees all his friends suddenly becoming relaxed and carefree in the work.

bUT afterall ,its just my opinion on the post .There is much truth to it"

anyway that post was like so berdrama in the comments area and it was so berkarangan got debate all but i just noticed that lots of people deleted their comments away so tibe tibe... haha.. the whole commentary looks so wrong cos its so not linked to one another now.. 


after that post he seems to be kacauing like everyone in blogging world.. calling people bitches sluts whores la.. kutuking this and that la..

well, he has his own views on things..

no one really likes him..

i doubt anyone likes him at all...

to me, he is just a lonely guy i guess, seeking for attention... i mean, who isnt?!??! if you dont seek attention and all the while being alone then later on you will be depress and got mental problems..

if you go seek attention and then kena kutuk gao gao that also cause problem.. maybe he is doing it wrongly?!!?

but no one is to judge another person... i mean... who are you to judge me?!! whatever i do is my problem la right.. the consequences i bear lor... so im not judging him as well..

the thing i realize about ooi2009 is that he is super against racism and when a blog post out there touches on some racist issue he will slam one lor...

well ooi2009, you have to know that everyone has their own rights into expressing themselves even though if he is a racist or not. the consequences is in their own hands.. you dont have to be so ber-api inside.. you can just ignore la... 

i think everyone has race issue within themselves and it is okay to be racist... who doesnt?!!? i cant say that im not racist... there is surely a bit of racism in everyone.. ok im not generalizing but sure there is... (so contradicting)...

if you can say that you have not even a bit of racism in you and youre purely racism free then ok lor... you win ok.. i yat gok gong you...

anyway i was like so out of topic...




the main purpose of this blog post is to help ooi2009 make new friends...

i mean i cant be giving him all the bloggers email address cos its just not right so im gonna put his email here for anyone who wants to make friends with him.. and im not liable to any future conflicts between any parties..

ooi2009@live.com.my

ps. ooi2009, if you dont get any response its none of my fault ok.. you gave your-sell quite a reputation jor if you know what i mean...

 

superdry? hipokrit...

lol... i accidentally click publish before actually writing any shit...

anyway...

like how the Singaporeans are crazy over Longchamp at one time...

the brits love Superdry to the max!!

its a japanese brand if im not wrong and its so overrated!!

lie seriously i can get the same type of clothes for half or maybe even lesser than the price of superdry..

all my lecturers are wearing it and whereever you walk in the streets pun nampak superdry..

the brand itself is the besar besar one...

as though superdry is local wtf...

hipokrit cakap benci US tapi semua pakai hollister la abercrombie la..

lol

i just love the trail yang hitam dan daun daun yang berwarna autumn!! lovelay!!!!

student cum cook..

so im not longer a student but also a full time cook...


you know that youre turning into one when:

You think of what to cook when youre hungry

You have a list of groceries to buy in your laptop screen/sticky note..

You know how to control the heat intensity when you cook..

You know how to cook using rice cooker..

You exchange recipes with your housemates instead of homework..

You gossip about what other people is eating in class for dinner instead of scandals and stuffs..

You go to the market more than you going to a library..

You compare prices in different food stores when buying groceries...

You try to google recipes from the net and making it..

You know how to use an oven..

You have spices in your room..

Your fridge and freezers are full with ingredients..

You know how to see whether the meat is fresh or not...

You can tell whether after the expiry date the food is still edible or not..

You know how to cook and boil soup at the same time..

You have a set of "uniform" that you use for cooking..

You go to school with your hair smell of fried rice..

You make extra food to bring to class and share it with your friends.. 

Ultimately(in my case), i know that im a full time cook when my fingers constantly smell like garlic 24/7

smart blonde..

so there is this blonde bitch in my group..

she speaks like a bimbo..

so typical blonde type of shit and she has that ego, she thinks shes some upper class whore or something wearing plastic PCK boots and stuffs..

anyway...

she is one of the people that i smile to and dont get a smile back so i damn anti her already at the beginning..

and now guess what..

i find it so sohaily irritating that she can wear a scarf in the lab!

omgosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

have you ever seen someone wearing a scarf doing experiment?

so wtf and the lab guy is racist one.. he sendiri asian(dowana say race) but he always side the angmoh one... anyway.. she did the whole experiment with the scarf on and somemore pink carrer one omgosh...

if you muslim and wear tudung nicely tug in ok la but the angmoh with dangling scarf.. eeeeeeeee.. so many evil final destination thoughts coming into my mind happening to her right now.. haha.. stupid bitch...

sun sets at 4...

its getting darker earlier day by day and its now setting around pass 4ish...

so by the time i finish lecture at 5 and i walk home macam malam like that...

so advertisement material like the one rain did with some shampoo thing.. HITAM, KEGEMARAN KU or some shit la... NAMA SAYA RAIN! *VOMITS*

anyway...

its a good change.. haha.. people usually say that they hate winter cos its kinda dead and dark all the time.. haha..

i havent got affected yet.. maybe not yet... but i dont think it will affect me much at all.. lol..

why spoil your day/night just because its dark? no no no.. tuls is always optimistic and gay.. haha..

and now got some daylight saving or some shit crap started liao so its basically 8 hours different with malaysia... you tolak lapan jam and thats my timing.. :)

i walk this trail every day to school.. hopefully it will turn all brown soon! :) cant wait...

im not malay...

ok.. first of all i need to clarify that i am chinese..

im not from china..

im a malaysian chinese..

not that im really proud of it or what..

...

anyway...

i dont mind that the ang mohs thinks that i am from china..

or laos...

or myanmar...

but the malaysian chinese that are there since year 1 thinks that IM MALAY is totally fucked up!!

lol!!!

omgosh...

your brains something wrong or i really look like malay?

*cry* LOL

i bukan melayu la omgosh....

yes my skin damn powerful kena sunlight for 5 mins will be hitam edi but after a night i will cerah balik but thats not the point omgosh..

malaysian chinese who cant identify another of its own is unforgivable!!

this is for you! *SLAP*

 

englishmen no understand asian hairstyle..

so i thought of chopping off all my long hair...

and yes i went..

guess what..

i look like freaking bee gees..

my sideburn is gone...

im just speechless..

im trying to comfort myself saying everything will be alright... haha.. it will grow back OMG I FEEL LIKE A RETARD!!!

jasonisahe, when you see me next month dont laugh ok! :)

i look like this but uglier! lolllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll